So to make a long story short I (21f) came to visit my long distance best friend (21f) this is the second night I’ve stayed at her house. Last night I have no idea how it started but we ended up making out. I even sucked on her boobs and we both agreed we enjoyed it. When we woke up we continued to make out. Tonight as we were laying in her bed I was bold and told her I wouldn’t mind kissing her again. She just laughed and acted grossed out. I obviously know that she does not have to consent to this. But, I want her to just be honest about it by saying yes or no. I just felt really humiliated after and I don’t know what to do now. I don’t want this to have wrecked our friendship and I just feel really rejected? And not in a “she didn’t want to kiss me” kind of way but in the “my best friend just acted like I was disgusting her”
For context: this is a friend I have had since I was 11 and we’ve been best friends through lots of moves across the provinces and long distance.
I don’t care that she didn’t want to kiss me, it was acting grossed out that upset me.
She initiated kissing and encouraged me to continue doing other things last night which is making me more confused * agin I know she obviously didn’t want to kiss me which is totally okay it’s just the situation is so confusing and leaving a bitter taste in my mouth? I don’t know *
Any advice? Can I fix things?
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Girl you gay af👀💀
(Don’t freak out y’all; I’m gay lmao)
I dunno I think she mightve been joking with the being “grossed out” thingy maybe she felt scared and didn’t know what to say? but I don’t know y’all I think the best advice is just talk to her. If u want this to be something more ask her. Or if you wanna pretend like it didn’t happen ask her that.
The fact she laughed while acting grossed out shows she wanted to make the situation least awkward.
So I feel if you girls just move forward, it would just be fine. Otherwise you both can confront each other about it and discuss how you feel about it. If she acts grossed out later, somewhere she is lying to herself about what happened.
Doing something that involves being more than friends is a real risk if you don’t wanna ruin your current relationship be it opposite genders or your case!