I’m not good at oral and handjob so I tried learning from watching videos and reading up on it.
I’ve been practicing with my bf a couple of times and today, I decided to challenge myself and see if I can make him finish with only those.
I tried my best until my arms and jaw are tired but he still didn’t finish and in the end, he just did it himself.
He just remarked “Seems like it’s hard for you, huh?” And I just feel really bad about myself. I really tried this time and I still couldn’t do it. I don’t want to make it about my self-worth or anything but my God, I feel so sad and frustrated in myself.
My best is not enough.