i was mad about something my mom was saying to me, probably getting on me for always being outside. i just got so angry and i walked out the living room and into the dining room and my sister followed me asking to play and i sat down crying telling her to get away from me but she wouldn’t leave and i just put my hands around her throat and squeezed. my mom seen it from the living room and started hitting me which i deserved.
i was around 8-9 and i just can’t stop thinking about it. that was the only time i’ve ever done anything like that. idk what made me. i really regret it
we have a great relationship now, idk if my mom ever told her because my mom was the type to tell everyone everything, old and new. i’ve never told anyone this and as bad as it sounds, it feels good getting it out.
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Sometimes it be like that
did you like get messed w as a child? kids don’t do that kinda shit unless something seriously wrong in the home.
It sounds like you experienced a moment of intense, overwhelming emotion as a child, and while your actions were harmful and frightening, it’s important to remember you were very young and likely didn’t have the emotional regulation skills you have now. The fact that you feel such deep regret and have never repeated such behavior speaks volumes about the person you are today. Sharing this difficult memory is a courageous step, and the fact that you and your sister have a good relationship now suggests that this isolated incident doesn’t define your connection. It might be helpful to explore these feelings with a therapist or counselor who can provide a safe and supportive space to process this past experience.
Stories like this are why I don’t miss my older brother.
My sister and I tried to strangle each other several times while we were growing up. To have siblings is to know how to be incandescently angry with another human being.
Not unusual for older siblings to hurt younger ones. I can attest to that from personal experience. When a friend of mine was a baby, his two older sisters put him in a stroller and were pushing him toward the river a block away. They were going to push him in the river. Their dad came home from work early and passed them and took them home.
I’m the eldest sister out of 3, and I would often beat the crap out of my younger siblings when I was angry. It didn’t even have to be anything they did. They were just a punching bag. I think I maybe stopped when I was around 11 or 12.
Logically, I know I was young, I was being abused by my dad and didn’t know how to manage my emotions. But I still feel so so so guilty to this day.
Luckily, I still have a great relationship with my siblings (even though I undoubtedly traumatized them). We’re all in our 20s now.
Anyway, the point of my story is to say that there are some truly heinous older siblings out there, and it’s surprisingly common for older siblings to harm their younger siblings. My husband was beat by his older brother, too, lol.
Getting over that guilt isn’t easy, but the guilt is unwarranted, so do what you can to learn to move past it. You deserve it!
I threw a cup made of glass in my brother’s face as a kid because he was an unbearable, agressive little shit. He’s fine, old glass cups in latam are nearly unbreakable. He would step on my hair and kick my stomach when I was laying in the floor watching TV. Just kids being kids.
Let go of it. My sister once hit me in the back so hard she left a hand print. I showed mom and she got in trouble.
I remind her of that quite often. I’m 65 now and she’s 70.
I threw my sister on the head with a fork. She bled and cried to my parents. We were like 6 & 7? She was always and still is a bully.
When we were like 13 & 14, I threatened her with a knife. 🔪 I wasn’t trying to kill her, just scare her. This was after she repeatedly lie to my parents about me, repeatedly was told to stop touching and taking my things, and kept hitting me and our other younger cousin. She legit would steal our clothes and stretch them out when she squeezes into them (to the point we couldn’t wear it anymore), but she beat the living daylights out of my cousin for wearing one of her tops one time, and embarrassed her in front of some church guys.
She never got spanked for hitting us. I was always told to bite my tongue and “be the humble one even if your sister is wrong”.
Always, always told to forgive and forget or just “deal”with her because “that’s just how she is”.
Almost stabbed her again last year and yet my mother refuses to let me live in peace away from her goddamn daughter. Any time I try to set boundaries, my mother takes it upon herself to make things difficult for me by holding herself and her dad as hostage. If I tell off my sister, she turns her back on me because only I “should know better”. My sister disrespects me all the time and my mom talks shit about her but yet she listens to her too. I can’t with these fucking people.
My little brother (20m) chased my big sister (31f) and I (25f) around with knives and locked us in closets when he was like 6-8. He’s my very best friend today.
Kids do stupid shit to their siblings sometimes. My sister is a couple years older than me and when I was around 4 or so I chased her down and stabbed her in the back with a pair of scissors. For no particular reason, just because. She was fine (her shirt was not though) and as adults we’re completely cool with each other and I obviously do not plan on stabbing her or anyone else anytime soon lol! “Kids are stupid” is a phrase that doesn’t just apply to harmless behavior, but also more dangerous ones. It takes a hot minute for the human brain to fully develop to the point where it can make reasonable, responsible, and respectful decisions. As long as you don’t feel inclined to strangle anyone nowadays, you’re doing completely fine and don’t really need to feel guilty bout it or anything.
One of my earliest memories is me playing with a toy on a bed, a kitten came to me to play with me on the bed. I grabbed it by a front leg and threw it across the room. My dad made a splint for its leg. I still regret this. Why did I do it? Because I was a child and could not consider the consequences of my actions? I learned in adulthood the human brain doesn’t start doing that until late 20’s.in age.
Yeah I got mad and bit my sister on the head once. I’m three years older than she is. I’ll never forget it. I apologized to her when we got to be adults. I don’t even remember why I was so mad. I don’t think she was bleeding or anything, she didn’t tell my parents.
lol my best friend’s brother threw her out the window when she was a baby. they have a great relationship now
At least you feel bad about it. My first memories are of my older sister locking me in my room, putting pillows on my face so I couldn’t breathe (I really thought I was going to die), and my parents not believing me or caring. She was/is so mean to me, and despite it all she was my hero growing up. It really fucked me up into adulthood. I haven’t spoken to her in years.
Always hated Amy. Jonah was more compatible with Kelly. I’ll die on that hill.
I was the youngest of three girls and got beat up on a regular basis. Then I got taller than both of them and turned the tables. It was very satisfying. I know my oldest sister feels badly for beating me and our other sister. She had a lot of rage towards us. I think it was because she was the oldest and often left in charge of us. I’m sure we were total brats and probably deserve what we got. It must have been really bad cuz she still carries the guilt around with her.. The thing about it is that I barely remember any of it. Chances are your sister doesn’t either.
On the bright side she prob learned to leave people alone pretty fast after that
You were a kid who didn’t get the proper support or teaching on how to handle your emotions, yeah it was wrong but you know that now and have the ability to control your emotions you more aware now . Give yourself grace and make it up to your sister by being a great big brother!
When I was 2 and my sister was born apparently I tried to suffocate her. I was unsuccessful. She turned into the golden child and to this day I am treated like shit by both my parents while she gets whatever she wants.
Normal sibling behaviour, dont wory too much.