TIFU Narratives that are vastly different

If you think that a person is doing well, then you must not know them well. This sentence is really valuable.A person may only show 10% of their real life to the outside world. In the eyes of outsiders, they may appear to have a good family background, considerate parents, good education, three or five close friends, and enjoy eating, drinking, playing, and having fun every day.But only I know that there are many things that others don’t know. This is the narrative of the difference between me and myself in the eyes of others.They can’t learn to accept things with equanimity, are constrained by education, and are attached to comparisons.It is impossible to fully expose and it is difficult to relax.I envy those who can find evidence of their luck in life.I feel very happy and my life is bright.This is really a capability.You have been avoiding pain, but now you are starting to repair yourself and slow down to perceive life.As mentioned earlier, learning to be self-consistent is a difficult thing, and it is also difficult to give up comparison.Comparisons are really thieves who steal happiness.
TLDR:Am I really bad and what should I do