It’s nothing against them. It’s that I’m in the middle of a breakup and it makes me sad and bitter when I think of an end of a chapter for me.. while peers younger than me are super happy, in love and engaged.
The day I had to break things off with a guy. I saw my coworker get engaged and it killed me realizing the juxtaposition.
I keep comparing myself, even though its the thief of joy. I can’t help it. Twice now, guys haven’t been able to commit because they don’t want to do long distance, meanwhile plenty of others do it and eventually marry.
I can’t even escape it bc work is having an engagement party of my coworker. Meanwhile, I have to smile while my heart is absolutely shattered.
Another guy I met today is planning to propose and got two rings for her (traditional indian).
I do try to keep myself busy but waking up and going to sleep is the absolute hardest.
For now, I have thrown in the towel with dating. I’m tired.
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I always lived by the saying “living well is the best revenge”. Channel that sadness into strength and work to create your best life- without a partner.
What things have you always wanted to do? Get out and do them. Take classes, travel, have cultural experiences, enjoy being able to do whatever you want, whenever you want! Now is your chance to only answer to yourself and your own preferences.
33f here 🙁 same. My last relationship ended (1 yr together) and seeing left and right of peers older or younger getting into proper fulfilling relationship makes me feel lonely at times like what do i do on weekends now? Ive done therapy, working out, meeting friends but there is always this loneliness. But i knew in my last relationship it was bad and couldn’t see a future thus ive ended it (too many vices, poor boundaries with female friends) so i knew what i did was right. I think i’m also in a limbo whereby idk if there are any decent men left 😅😅
I guess we just have to “chop wood carry water” doing the things that matter..