Why is he (33M) acting like this? (26F)

I meet with a certain guy for.. private stuff. And

He’s totally lying to me. I believe he is seeing other girls too. And that he’s lying about it. And he waits to see if others will be available, and when they are not, he texts me. I pretend I believe shit and I never react. I have texted him about it many times but he says no and I’m not lying and all that and I don’t believe shit but I shut up.

But he confuses me. Today he asked me if I wanted to drink something or if we should just go to bed immediately and I know that when someone says this, they mean they want the latter so I don’t care about what I would like, and say let’s just go to bed. he got sick in between and he couldn’t. But he asked me not to leave immediately. I stayed, played with his dogs. He puked.

Then he brought his laptop and we watched a comedy’s episode, while we cuddled and held hands. When it ended, we lied on the couch and it was lovely, because he caressed me 🙁

I did what turns him on A LOT lmao it’s fucking funny at this point.

We are not friends. We never text in between the meetings. But it’s not the typical booty call I know or have heard of. He gives me a bath, he kisses my hair and brushes it and it’s just, I cannot understand him because from one side it’s like there’s NO foreplay and it HURTS because he just starts immediately, no hug no touch nothing. And then it’s like I have a fucking boyfriend for a while???

Makes me feel so horrible I consider offing myself on the way back home every time

TLDR; Ahh booty call turns weird and I am confused. I hate it but also love it but also hate it. Please read.