I’m 25 years old and cannot picture a future for myself. I cannot even picture myself alive to see 26. I am not suicidal or depressed and this has been weighing on me heavily. My husband talks about us growing old, how we’ll look, how great of a mother I’m going to be one day and I cannot picture it as I again, cannot even picture myself alive next year. I have this odd feeling that I am supposed to die young and I cannot understand it. I feel like I am just existing and taking it day by day but I don’t want to live like this anymore. It just seems like it’s impossible to wrap my brain around. I have been this way for a very long time and no matter how hard I try, nothing seems to change. I very much want to live a long, fulfilling life & be able to envision these things but it’s like something is blocking my brain from doing so. I don’t know where to go from here.
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Talking to a therapist helped me work through not being able to picture my future. It doesn’t solve everything, but it can help clear the mental block. It’s worth trying.
OP you’re just simply stuck in the stereotype way of living. Take a break, go for a vacation. Explore more about things that make you happy more often. Talk about it to your husband and you guys will have to make a drastic change to your overall lifestyle which will make your life more enjoyable. You are married and if your husband is a great guy he’ll understand and you guys can work as a team in making each other’s lives wonderful together.
P.S.- You need not die so young at 25. You’re not a baigan 🤧
It takes real strength to open up like this, I just want you to know you’re not alone in feeling this way. Even if you can’t see the future right now, it doesn’t mean it isn’t beautifully waiting for you.
I used to think the same thing at your age, now I’m 27
I relate to about 90% of this. I’m 26, living at home (can’t afford to move out rent is far too high), not married (that part is wanted I’m too young for that) but I don’t see myself going anywhere. I don’t see a future. I can’t see myself going anywhere, doing anything or even achieving anything. I can’t ever see myself getting a house, or doing anything with myself. I want to move back abroad but now I think I’m stupid for wanting to do that? And even if I do, what then? I’m not gonna settle where I am cause there’s no future here but then what do I do abroad? I don’t want to die, it actually scares me, I want to live s long life but I also just don’t see that. I don’t see that future. I also don’t see one here. It’s just stuck in this dead end mental block. I know how you feel, it’s shit. Sorry I can’t help you but at least you know you’re not alone in feeling that way.
Talk to a therapist. I could never see myself living past my 20s either. I’m 47 now. Talking it out with a professional is worth it