I know this is in part my fault but I am going to be fucked up if I blame myself entirely.
-Didn’t tell me we were broken up AFTER the time he later said he’d broken up with me. Took maybe 4-6 months? Lied and said he did.
-Didn’t tell me he had HSV1 (HSV 1 isn’t too big of a deal, but still annoying because even if he didn’t know it was HSV1, it was obvious it was SOMETHING and he still got me to go down on him in the dark without me seeing, and so know I do too.)
-Lying about where he was going WHILE we were together, and after when I “only thought” we were together (according to him, because nothing had actually changed.)
-I asked when after 9 months or so after I found out he’d left me, we started seeing each other again, if he was seeing anyone else. He said “no”. Two weeks later, he gave me herpes and I had to PRY it out of him.
-Didn’t tell me after 5 years of knowing each other, 3 intimately, that he was forced to get on EBT. I found out because I threw away a receipt he left at my place. (not as dramatic as the rest, but still-?)
-Lied about getting obvious sexts while we were still together.
I let him lie to me and justify shit actions for WAY too long. I just don’t understand why someone like him has to make someone feel like they’re loved.
I can’t believe that I let myself believe his BS again.
If you’re someone like him, just fuck off and don’t talk to people who are actually capable of love and honesty.
And if you’re reading this, J, what the fuck is wrong with you? Though if you weren’t also lying about not using Reddit, you won’t.
I’ve been in love with you since 2019 and I’m so sick of it.
Just, fuck you. Fuck you for making me think it was real in the beginning, gaslighting me after I knew it wasn’t, promising me shit you could never give me. Making me think you cared about me and my life.
For still trying to convince me even NOW after you’ve FUCKED MY LIFE UP in various ways, made me question my sanity, give me PTSD, trust issues I’ll never fucking heal from.
Fuck you. I listened to you, I looked up to you. You’ll never understand in a million years because you’re clearly incapable of love.
You trying to hide the fact that you have a whole apartment in another city from me. You tore the label off the box but you left the packing slip inside. That’s amateur shit.
I’ve never been stalky before, but I can’t trust you to give me answers, and I’m not about to let myself get folded back into your 3 ring circus act of lies and gaslighting.
What is it? A girlfriend? Just another fucktoy like me? Your apartment? How long? I’ve been looking. I’m going to answer these questions for myself.
I wouldn’t have done anything with that info before, but knowing that this is probably because you’re a cheating, lying immoral fuck?
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