Let’s just say that the past two months have been a doozy. One thing has led to another & I’ve full blown relapsed. It started off with a few times a wk…now it’s everyday. I’ve lost 20lbs in about a month, my sleep is all over the place. No one has a clue what’s going on. I’m quitting, I can’t sustain this & also have a heart issue. I know I’m literally killing myself with this. I’m terrified of detox & what may happen, I’ve never used this substance this heavily before & have no clue what to expect or prepare for physically. This time is strange because I don’t have any shame about it, I’m just genuinely scared. Scared every time I’m dosing, but scared when I stop. Idk, no one knows what’s going on & I just needed to say it.
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Come on! You got this!! Be strong. You can do it!
Ok I can relate I have body dysmorphia and i eat like crazy and was depressed ,as the place where I live i do not have access to drugs so i turned to food , I gained a lot of weight people made fun of me i thought about killing myself , got sleep apnea and what not , i decided to take one day at a time without thinking about the bigger picture I just did my part on daily basis walked 10 km ate only healthy food i relapsed i still loved my self in that phase too and guess what it worked for me I am in good shape good relationship with food , don’t look at the bigger picture just let yourself take a slack and love yourself