I wish I had a dick even though I’m a girl

I wish I could experience what it’s like to have a dick. I’m not trans, but damn the thought I’ll never be able to get a blowjob or fuck a girl.. It sounds like it feels so good and honestly as I am now, I’m pretty averse to the idea of actually having sex but if I had a dick instead I wouldn’t be. I want to have a dick so badly. I actually can’t believe getting a bj is something I’ll only ever be able to imagine.