I don’t dream anymore. I only have vivid, extreme nightmares filled with body horror.
If I’m dealing with a problem with my teeth, I have a nightmare where my gums open up and fall apart. If there’s a simple leak in my bathroom, I dream of a dark liquid taking shape and trying to burn me. Today, I dreamt that a man grabbed me and I couldn’t scream (my mother just stood there watching, doing nothing). At some point, that skinny man started melting, and I was completely terrified.
It feels like every situation in my life turns into a nightmare, something horrifying and disgusting. I feel scared, and sleeping no longer brings me comfort. It’s exhausting to go through this every night. And when it’s not a nightmare, it’s a dream where I’m being publicly humiliated or put in some deeply embarrassing situation.
When I was a child, I lived in a violent home and had nightmares about shootings and death. After my sister died in an accident, I spent four years having the same dream: a man dressed in black would break into my room. I’d wake up and he’d be standing next to my bed. Then he’d put his hand over my mouth and rape me (I’ve never actually been raped).
Many years have passed. I’m an independent woman now, but the nightmares never went away.
Anyone else?
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Same here. Good dreams come from good leaders. Virtuous people holding power make good dreams. My power is too scattered to do it anymore…. I need a good woman. lolz
You’re probably someone with a lot of trauma
That’s pretty disturbing. Nightmares are your subconscious putting images to your traumas. Poor girl… It must be awful to live with that for so many years
Ugh that’s horrible. Sleep should be restful, not traumatic. Are you able to see a therapist? They would be able to help you come to terms with your past and get some peace.