TIFU by trying an open relationship

I (M29) have been dating my girlfriend (F27) for about three years. Lately, with both of us getting busier (I work in IT and she works in health and fitness), it’s been harder to prioritize the relationship.

Recently, she’s been swamped with grad school coursework, and I’ll admit, I wasn’t the most patient partner. I would push her to put more effort into our sex life specifically helping to act out some of my fantasies something she used to enjoy but didn’t have much time for anymore. I didn’t handle it well. I was rude and demanding she put in the effort even while she was busy.

Frustrated, I asked for an open relationship. She initially said no, but after bringing it up a few more times, she eventually agreed, giving me a two-month window. I was excited at first.

However, my experience in the dating world was rough. In the full two months, I only managed to kiss one girl, striking out every other time.

Feeling defeated, I went back to my girlfriend and told her I no longer wanted an open relationship. She was happy to hear that, and I figured we’d move on.

But last week, she asked if she could have a month to explore an open relationship herself. I felt like I couldn’t say no, so I agreed. Now, she’s preparing for it and just the other day, I saw her buying new clothes and heels, items she rarely wears.

She has had several girlfriends over of late and they hang out and talk for ages. It always involves cackling laughter that i can hear while i am upstairs. Also, i just learned that they plan a 2 week euro trip soon.

i dont know if this is a fuck up but thought i would share.

TL;DR – Asked for an open relationship, had no luck but now my gf wants to try it as well