Lately I’ve been missing someone from my past. I don’t understand what I’m feeling. I always think about her after all these years. It’s been more than 10 years.
The weirdest thing is she wasn’t a totally close friend. We were friends but we became close when I was with my first girlfriend. She was one of the bestfriends of my ex girlfriend (first love). I feel bad for thinking about her, remembering memories with her more than my first love, more than my best friends.
Another weird thing is I have no contact with her ever since our friend group naturally separated apart because of life. I should have no reason to think about her at all. I check out her instagram sometimes just to check if she’s doing okay. Why her though? Am I right to think I have some unresolved feelings with her?
I want to know if this is something that happens with other people. Is this normal? Am I just nostalgic of that period of my life? Some kind of lingering infatuation? I am now an adult but what the hell is happening to me… I feel like I’m probably just romanticizing my memories. I have no one to talk to about this so here I am ðŸ˜