I am 28M and I have been pursuing research. Its been a shit show basically lately. I have been on meds for depression and my gf broke up with me saying that I am not doing right. My friends gave up on me. Everyone says that they are busy at the moment. Most don’t even show up for me. They have their own things to deal with. Last year has been hell. Its still hell but I think I am used to it now. Well I cannot really says its someone’s fault. I just blame myself.
I have been hit by car twice last year. Couldn’t tell anyone. Then went to therapy. It helped a bit but its a wobbly path. I have good days and bad days. Now I hate everyone. I want to disappear for 6 months and be back. But I do need someone to talk to or I will go mad.
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I get it. I also know that saying “I’m sorry” doesn’t really help, so I’m gonna try giving you an advice. Try focusing on something that makes sense to you, that makes you happy or that you know will benefit you in some way. By shifting your focus from all the bad things happening to you, that you aren’t in control of, to what you can actually do, it helps. It has a few downsides to it, but it can really help you “distract” yourself. The downside is that you would be ignoring your feelings, like shutting them down, but sometimes it’s for the best, you don’t need to keep remembering yourself how bad it’s going. The important thing is to continue going forward.
Eventually, (I mean it, it will happen eventually) everything will just get better without you even noticing because you’re so focused on what you’re doing. It’s great, but you’ll have to deal with all your emotions at the end.
For example try focusing on work, ignore whatever you feel that hurts you right now.
I hope you feel better, and things change. Hang in there. Be there for yourself, people will let you down.
I’m glad you’re in therapy… Just stick with it… If you want to do something find a hobby… Take an art class… Try pottery… Grow flowers…. Raise chickens. Have fresh eggs for breakfast…. Do something