I (23 male) was either 14 or 15 years old at this time. Mind you, my mom was always very abusive and controlling, so stupid shit like this happened to me a lot. But this one time, I had accidentally walked in on my mom changingy baby sister’s diaper and she all of a sudden started trying to accuse me of looking at my own baby sister in a sexual way, and I remember her chasing me down the house with a stick to beat me. I tried defending myself, telling her that what she was assuming was not true, but she didn’t by it.
As I’m thinking about this now I’m ready to just kill myself. Part of me wants to cut my wrists open with a razor, bleed out and die.
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She’s a psycho. It’s not you. You can’t help her mental illness. You should see if you can get therapy partially paid for by your insurance or through your school.
You deserved better. You still do.
Why do you want to die because of this?
You know you were not looking at your sister this way.
Your mother did not “see something in you that even you didn’t know was there”. She does not have googles to see into your soul just because she is a mother or an adult.
She accused you of something heinous that you did not do. She is the one that should be too ashamed to live. Unfortunately she does not sound like a good person so she won’t have a guilty conscience.
Cut her off completely from your life, get your ass in therapy, and live your best life. She does not deserve to have so much importance that she ruins your life
I’m so sorry you went through this… But don’t let her win any battle. Un aliving yourself would only give her Ammunition against your memory, and a reason to be “the victim” of the story… And maybe your baby sister may need your help out of this situation.
I’m sorry you’re feeling that way. I would go no contact and find a good therapist. Her treatment of you, does not define your worth. You’re worth taking up space and air. You will find someone who loves you and makes you feel how you deserve. You’ll have kids if you decide to and get to treat them how you wish you had been with all the love and respect parents should be giving their kids. Don’t give up. I was ready to, and now I’m a mom to two beautiful kiddos and married to a wonderful man