Maybe a stranger question, but it’s something I struggle with. My problem is fully biological, I don’t like being weak (I do go to gym, I’m not the weakest or smallest woman but still), I don’t like that I have potential to carry a child, I hate that my whole body build for something I don’t want, and takes what I really could use – strength and speed. It’s impossible to ignore, I don’t know how to cope with this, the older i get the harder it gets. And I’m not trans, and I don’t have any mental illnesses (at least the last time I checked), but being a woman feels insufferable. I also consider to undergo surgeries, but it’s also makes me sad because it feels like the only way out of it, and I hate that I need to rip myself apart to feel complete. Should I just ignore it or I could do something about it?
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girl i’ve been wondering this too 😭😭
This reads as a villain speech. Soon, mysterious cyborg will start terrorizing downtown Gotham.
Anyway, such rejection of your own body points at horrible deep problems. This needs a therapist to unravel. Or you will spend your life in body you hate.
If you were a man you could still be unhappy with your speed and strength. Many such men. So is it really being a woman you don’t like or this specific dissatisfaction? If the latter, this is a pretty generalisable problem: “I want to be richer”, “I want more sex”, “I want more power” etc. The remedy for these kinds of dissatisfactions is generally figuring out how to find reward in what you do have and not comparing yourself to others too much. But that’s the human condition so good luck with it!
Good news is you can improve both speed and strength. Sure, men’s testosterone levels mean they can get stronger overall but I’m a PT and having trained a lot of gen pop clients, I can tell you I’m still a lot stronger than some of your average men. And I wouldn’t even rate myself as super strong. Your biology does not define you and you can be whatever version of yourself you want 💪🏼
Could it be a form of body dysmorphia? Doesn’t imply you are trans.
And is it objective? Like I have the impression you can kick asses already, if you go to the gym. Or maybe you overestimate how different is going to be not being a woman? I mean the average not-woman.
I’m not saying there are no differences, but humans come in a wide range, with all kind of strengths and weaknesses.
Do something which makes you feel comfortable within your body. If it’s a type of dance you learn, going to the gym, riding your bike. Whatever. Feeling how perfectly your body works will give you confidence in yourself
Maybe counselling would help? Sometimes certain contraceptives stop your periods, and even if they don’t, you wouldn’t be able to get pregnant while on them.
I’m on the Morena coil when I don’t have periods anymore.
I don’t want to go “therapy”.. But like, honey. It might not be gender dysphoria, but those are absolutely not normal thoughts to have. You are defining yourself by measuring yourself in comparison to not just others, but an entire gender. An entire spectrum of a gender at that, too.
You aren’t incapable of being strong and fast. Plenty of women out there who are stronger than most men around them.
You aren’t “built to have a child”. You have the ability, yes, but it’s not necessarily your purpose. You can argue about biology and the fact that being a woman means that you can, but the ability to have a child doesn’t define your experience of being a woman (otherwise, my semi-infertile ass and, I assume, a lot of trans people would like to have a word).
You say your issues are ‘purely biological’ but OP, every single word you wrote is your experience. It’s not a biological issue, it’s the way you view yourself and your biology. And I don’t say that to invalidate those feelings, not at all.. But I do wonder if your feelings about this are being exacerbated by the way you’re looking at this. You might genuinely benefit from re-examining your stance – because getting stuck in those feelings won’t do you any good, either.
Have you considered being non-binary (somewhere between man and woman) or agender (no feeling of gender)? Non-binary can mean for example ~80% woman and ~20% man (though many non-binary people are also a bit or a lot fluid, meaning these percentages can change day-by-day) while you can identify as a man/woman at the same time, or just non-binary without identifying as a man/woman.
Another thing that crosses my mind is how much society has affected you how feminine you “should” be. It’s a different thing from gender (there are feminine men and masculine women too). If you really feel more masculine, then you could try some masculine things how they feel (while still being a woman)