I feel so genuinely trapped like I hate this fucking community, they’re all so judgmental and miserable. My parents laugh at the idea of forcing people to get married when they don’t want to, treating it like it’s so funny little thing. I have the abuse a woman can face within these marriages and I know I don’t want it for myself. I am very emotional right now and probably not being coherent but how do you get through to people who see no fucking life worth even living without marriage being in it even if it’s an abusive one, who care more about impressing people than protecting their kids. My parents want me to get married soon and I’ve realized that I’d rather fucking die. I feel like I have no autonomy, no freedom, I am an adult woman and I get treated like a fucking child that doesn’t know any better. My dad genuinely spends all his time being angry, yelling all the time and I am afraid I will just give into it and spend my life being stuck in a miserable marriage and not living how I want to. This doesn’t mean I want to date around and whatever but maybe I want to travel, maybe I just simply don’t want to get married. I hear about women who have gone through these experiences and want better for their daughters whereas for my mom she wants me to suffer the same fate she did. Please don’t say some shit about just leave because if it were that easy I would have done it by now.
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Hi OP, I’m going through something similar. All I want to say to you is — you have to put yourself first. You can’t do anything to make them understand nor fall into this trap. I’ve made my peace that both my parents and I have been from generations that’s world’s part. We’ve both have different privileges so I don’t blame them but instead have been taking decisions at my own will. They can’t stop me. I’m the third child after two boys so I’ve always been a rebel.
You of-course can’t leave and my suggestion would be to think of ways on how you tackle these issues for YOURSELF.
Of course leaving ain’t easy, if it was easy everyone would do it. Neither is putting up a fight with your parents, since they could kick you out if they wanted to. It’s a huge risk, your safety would be compromised. But you see… as long as you consider your safety to be the most important thing, it will be something people can control you with. You can be safe, or you can be free and powerful. Can’t have it both ways.
This is not a financial advice.
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