I (22 M) have been self harm free a few years now but I’m struggling more and more to cope with my depression. I have no release, nobody to talk to because nobody gets it. My only release is too harm because then I finally FEEL something.
I (22 M) have been self harm free a few years now but I’m struggling more and more to cope with my depression. I have no release, nobody to talk to because nobody gets it. My only release is too harm because then I finally FEEL something.
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I’ll send a dm to talk. Maybe I can get it. I’m 27. M. Been through a lot, overcame and overcoming it with my own faith.
I’ve struggled with similar, I understand. For me it was a sort of tension release, which may be similar to what you’re feeling/needing.
It’s like it all builds up and harming yourself is the only way to sort of bleed out that tension, right? I find screaming in my car helpful, running like hell until I’m tired (which is really about thirty seconds), and biting the shit out of my pillow or something. Also taking a blade to a journal can help, if that’s your deal.
Feel free to message me if you need a friend.
Not sure if you struggle with PTSD or dysregulation in general, but it sounds like you’ve figured out a way to provoke your nervous system into its window of tolerance. I could be wrong. When you’re depressed, is it a pretty low energy, or emotionally flat kind of depression? Is shame a part of it?
I tried to send a dm but it wouldn’t go through.
Can you start it?