Long story short, I’m on a fellowship program for a PhD from a foreign country (I’m a US citizen). I never signed the contract for it as my father did on my behalf. They want me to finish by June but thats impossible. I also want to drop out or at least take a leave of absence because my mental health is quite literally down the drain right now and continuing might make me escalate to a point that scares me. I have an appointment with the counseling services on campus in a couple of hours but it feels like its in forever.
I guess I just want reassurance that everything will be ok. I’ve been crying non stop for days, having constant panic attacks, and feeling like my life is ending. I can barely eat from all the anxiety. I’ve tried talking to my parents but they tell me to suck it up. It feels like its the end of the world right now.