I’ve been clean off party drugs for a good 9 months now. I used to abuse ketamine, molly, lsd, research chemicals, etc. almost every other day for a solid two years. Thankfully I changed up my living and working situation, and my want to do these drugs decreased drastically, and I felt no need to get fucked up all the time. Recently, I met up with a friend who I haven’t really talked to in a while at a bar with their other friends, and towards the end of the night me, her, and her guy friend go back to her place to continue to shoot the shit. To add context, I had already been drinking a bit throughout the day with shifties and a couple after work beers with my coworkers, so I’m somewhat buzzed. We get to her place, and she offers me some lines of ketamine, and I, regrettably, say yes. I know mixing ketamine and alcohol is really dangerous, still I would do it all the time back in my party days because I really threw caution to the wind and just wanted to get fucking wasted. What happened after I snorted the lines was a blur, except that I was slumped on my friend’s chair and all of a sudden vomit was coming out of my mouth. At some point my friend lifted me off the chair and laid me on my side on the ground and I was passed out til the next afternoon, covered in my own vomit. I apologized to my friend, but I find out her friend that was over, who I’ve talked to before and exchanged contact info with had immediately blocked me on everything, I’m guessing because he was so disgusted. I’ve definitely had my disgusting moments before on drugs and NDEs, but surprisingly getting blocked and left on read was not a reaction I’ve had before. And it’s definitely due in part to the reaction, but it feels even more embarrassing than all the other times because it was so pointless to go back and do drugs when it doesn’t even serve me anymore, and you just feel so pathetic going back to it when you haven’t done it in a long time.
TL;DR I did ketamine after not doing any hard drugs for almost a year and blacked out/vomited everywhere in such a way that the people there were utterly repulsed.
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Get better friends. You could have been dying and they just left you to lay in your vomit instead of calling an ambulance wtf
bruh that’s not a fuck up on your end, but your fucking “friends” for not getting medical help right away. Holy shit that’s awful I’m so sorry. Honestly, they deserve to have puke covered everywhere, and that’s the least worry you should have on your mind.
It is unfortunate that they didn’t get you any help.
By blocking you, they are helping you. Grow a backbone and block them.
that person sucks. incredibly judgemental. of COURSE you yacked, dude. who the fuck does that guy think he is when he knows that kind of reaction comes with the territory?
such a “high-school” mentality.
I would, because I think puking is hilarious, laugh my ass off…but I’d never judge someone for getting sick. it’s nonsense behavior. they can fuck all the way off.
at least the embarrassment acts as a kind of deterrent. blessing in disguise, yeah?
u learned a valuable lesson that day about drugs and about your friends. Glad you survived, but never forget this event
A lot of times people who are clean from drugs have stories of moments like this to recall or talk about when they had a sort of “rock bottom” moment before things changed for the better. Sounds shitty and messed up, a learning experience? Probably?
Sleeping on your side on the ground was probably the actual safest bet tbh, what they call in first aid the recovery position. Aside from getting medical attention- though if you are an American I could understand why you might be glad you didn’t incur ambulance/hospital fees.
Regarding this friend of a friend, I wouldn’t presume that they blocked you because they are so repulsed, but rather that they were sketched out. If they are not the type of person to fuck around with drugs much- then that would be scary to see. If they are one to fuck with substance use- still scary and also I would imagine they might be afraid that they could get into trouble for being associated with what happened to you. Not something to worry about really, you can only control what you do and how you let yourself feel about things others do.
No need to be hard on yourself, everybody makes mistakes. Thankfully this one didn’t result in you asphyxiating on your vomit? Sounds like a good reason to slow down and reflect, be careful, maybe even speak to a professional about what you experienced. For all you know you could have a medical condition that was triggered, and now’s a good time to find out.
Relapsing or using again after a prolonged period of sobriety is incredibly dangerous for certain substances, because your tolerance to it went down. Before you may have been able to take a dangerous or deadly dosage, but after a break that dosage will be dangerous for you again.
Man you have to make a mistake to learn from it.
Congrats on being sober, I know it might be hard to see but your friends showed you who they are and what you mean to them.
Been there done that whether just alcohol or drugs aswell it’s not pretty – nobody likes cleaning up someone else’s sick.
But to me if you’re the type of person to not cleanup your friends sick and make sure they’re ok and tell them not to worry about it then you don’t deserve that friend.
They want you for your best times but disappear at your worst times.