I dropped out of high school due to mental health issues. Then the following year Corona happened and I really got in the flow of doing nothing. Then I eventually moved and got a job.
I had that job for a while but eventually quit without having another job in place. Now I haven’t had a job since. I had to move back in with my parents but the deal was I had to get my GED.
I’m 23 now and I have been applying for new jobs but haven’t heard anything back. I then started to have a very low self esteem about my self for the last few years and just didn’t do my GED.
My dad died almost 2 years ago and depression over took me like it never had before. Since then I have just been living with my mom. I went back to try for my GED again and I was doing pretty good. But I stopped doing that after I had a panic attack and haven’t been back at it.
The school has texted me asking if they could help with anything and I wrote back while I was high that I was going though a midlife crisis. They asked if there was anything they could do but I didn’t message back and that was a few weeks ago.
I help around the house and do errands but when I’m done I just go back to my room play video games while geting high and watch a lot of porn.
Now I feel life a complete fucking loser in the eyes of my family and I know they want to say something but they don’t. I feel completely numb because i have just given up on everything and I just want it to end.
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Edit:get that fucking GED. It’s literally the least you can do and you’ll get more offers.
Hey it’s okay. You’re dealing with a lot losing your dad. You’re not a loser. Just hard stop and decide what you want your life to look like. It’s never too late to make changes. If I were you, focus on getting your GED. That will open the door for some entry level jobs. If you have the freedom, enroll in community college or a trade school of your interest and go from there. If not, you do not need an education to start a business. Find something you’re interested in and take the steps to go in that direction.
Brutal bro. Some people just never get a chance at living. I’m in the same boat
You sound like realize you were put in a rough spot, so please be kind to yourself. The getting high and porn do not constitute a loser. You’re just somebody that has gone through a rough patch and is likely just trying to cope with it.
This is going to be tough to hear but since this is your confession you may need to hear this. Stop making excuses, we all have mental issues and loved ones who are dead or really sick. Write down the things you don’t like and forbid yourself from doing them and fell your time with things that you’ve been avoiding. Be consistent and only reward yourself after successfully complete things you hate. Exercise is proven to work for depression better than any drug in the market. Follow people who you find inspiring and follow their routines. You got this
Take some shrooms it will change you.