i have to move in less than 3 weeks and i have nowhere to go. i work as a substitute teacher but make nowhere near enough to qualify income wise for anything. if i do find a place i wont be able to pay the $4k+ to move in. no savings because ive been paying 50% of my income in rent alone. i have cancer, i have no friends, no support. my car needs new tires, new brakes, a new belt, and that’s what i know of. i haven’t bought groceries once since the start of this year, i eat the food at work. i’m 23, i’ve been doing this since 17.
i want nothing more than to die. thank you for listening because i don’t have a single soul.
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I’m so sorry. I hope nothing more than for blessings to come your way.
God’s gonna bless you man. Hang in there. He will meet you exactly where you are and provide everything you need, and then some.
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I would love to lend a listening ear. I understand the not wanting to be here. I can relate to work being the only source of food . Please message me if you’d like to stake up a chat
This so heartbreaking 🫂 please know I am praying for you, and keeping you in my heart.
It’s posts like yours that make me feel some sort of point to all of this – as in, existence in general. I can absolutely 100% feel what you’re saying… The world is a madhouse, and not really the fun time these days.
I was kicked out of the home where I lived and felt secure and safe back in the fall of 2024. I had to move to a neighboring town, and in with family. My mental health has since declined pretty badly, and now all I want to do is sit outside somewhere and listen to birds sing. That’s seriously all that I want to do. For whatever reason, my family doesn’t believe that all I do is wander around and wait for the day to end.
If I went back to work, I’d make just enough to become ineligible for cheap(ish) health care, I wouldn’t be able to afford groceries because the tax bracket I’d be in would take my grocery money, and I’d feel like a caged animal for 8-9 hours a day, 5 days a week. But what are the options here?
I believe in the other comments on your post – that you’re going to be blessed. If you have hope, keep it. If you have any faith at all, nurture it and let it grow. If you still have a spark, you’re doing all right. Don’t die. Don’t let it kill you. Lay down for a while and rest, but please just keep on going.
Can you relocate?
There’s alot of resources for cancer patients. There’s also alot of scholarships, pale grants and additional government funding that most likely isn’t being looked at?
As a sub, you can extend towards tutoring, look at programs to get you off a being a sub and licensed doe teaching or a chef for school cafeterias.
Car stuff, there was a large bike electric bike sale this year and tax breaks that were around 1200. Scooters etc. Maybe sell your car at caravan and get down size? No gas no broken parts. Governments also give and even some schoom districts public transports for free.
As for the move, any saleable items? All must go etc? Something to lessen the load of moving.
Life can be expensive. The point is to extend your capabilities from a narrow mind to a creative one. You already have alot going on. I get that. But you also have for you ways that need to be utilized to solve these very common problems that people of all kinds face in one way or another. Even cancer had been survived. So friend, see what you can do and make a A-list and get creative and then do. Even if it means to fail. That’s okay to fail. Its okay to become homeless and even start over again. Doesn’t give a honest reason to quit. It means to keep going and become.
I’m so sorry for what you’re going through. This world is cruel and run on greed. I wonder if there are any available resources in Connecticut? Could the Connecticut subreddit help out? Sorry I’m in Canada so my knowledge is limited ): I hope and pray things improve for you!!
Please take it one day and one thing at a time. Rent a room for now and seek to move into a nicer place with roommates. There are others in your financial situation who are also looking for roommates to lighten the load of paying rent. You might even make some new friends that way!
You sound like you qualify for using food banks. Please don’t be ashamed, and start using them if you can. Everyone on earth has a purpose and their life has meaning, even if you don’t feel like you do. You matter. You’re in a terrible storm right now but no storm lasts forever. Things will get better.
The amount of people, including myself, that are in your boat right now is horrifying.
I’m praying for you. I feel really alone right now too if that makes you feel any less lonely.
I’m so sorry for everything you’re going through
Man I feel your pain. This world is rigged against people like us. So sorry you’re at a low point right now. Maybe look into an open room that’s available in an existing living situation? If roommates are just looking for someone to fill a vacant room, there may be less red tape. And is it possible to trade in the car for something cheaper? Maybe switch to public transit or bicycle now that it’s getting warmer? Just throwing out ideas, I’m sure you’ve considered all this already. Don’t give up. We are stronger and more adaptable than we think.
A quick check confirms that the YWCA has rooms for emergency shelter, and help getting something permanent. Have you tried them yet? Even if you have to relocate, you’ll still be able to sub.
I pray that God leads you a place where you can be safe and secure, and not have to worry about where you’re going to lay your head at night. I’m sorry you’re going thru this at your young age. You wouldn’t be if you were my kid.
Just a proposed option
Sell your belongings, if you dont sell them in time of the move you can get a storage unit if you can afford it.
Make accommodations to live in your car if you have one. If you dont there are shelters all over the country for people that work, but dont have a place to live. Get a P.O. box for mail
Make your life as basic as basicly possible. Meaning only necessities no splurges, no eating out, no luxuries, including that 50$ shirt you’ve been eyeballing
Apply for govt housing assistance. These aren’t the best place to live, but it’ll keep you off the street.
If you have a car you can take your belongings and move to a different state since that job isn’t giving you a livable wage anyway
Don’t even need to guess to know this is the US. It’s so sad and despicable how this country treat their own people.
Try assisted su in Netherlands ,
Hello from the east coast my friend- you are loved by all of this on the thread ❤️✨ if you find yourself in VA please don’t hesitate to reach out
I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Praying for you. Do you have food pantries where you live? It sounds like it’s time to sell everything and move somewhere that has better resources to help
🙁 I have faith that you will overcome your struggles, whether alone or with help. The universe (or God, if you believe in him) will only give you what you can handle. Hang in there <3
Can you move to a lower cost of living area?
I say this in all earnestness—get the hell out of teaching. I say this as a person who barely survived as an adjunct professor.
I was in almost your exact position a few years ago. If you’ve got nothing where you’re at, then go somewhere else. Best choice I ever made. CT is a horrible state to be poor in tbh. I don’t know the best place for you to go to but there are places with lower living costs. Best thing to look for is something with okay pay and alot of overtime. It’s going to take work to dig out of that hole, trust me. I had to get a po box and live out of my car for a little while, but it worked out.
Ted Kaczynski was right.
I understand your feelings. If I may, can you see if your city has any resources or fb groups geared towards help? We have end atl homelessness fb groups here amongst other resources, so if there is just a sliver of hope id like for you to be able to find it. I wish you nothing but the best.
You deserve the world and more, especially with how hard you’re fighting. Every minute is a struggle, but it’s another minute of you trying to do better for yourself. I hope things improve for you, and I’m sorry you have to go through this.
My heart breaks for you. But dying is a permanent solution to a temporary question. Do you really want to die or just stop living the life you’re currently living?
There are so many amazing people who would step up and help you as much as they can. All the love and positivity and support from this chat are evidence of that.
Reach out ask for help to anyone.
🙁 please don’t give up just yet, you are only 23… I’m 21 and have felt the same way about life as of late but trust me you have made it this far you can do it just a little longer.. my best advice would be schooling.. sadly… it can get you benefits because students need them so bad.. 🙁
Your position sucks, I genuinely empathize with you. But still persevere. Don’t give up on life. I pray that your life changes for the better genuinely.
I am so sorry that you’re going through this. Are you receiving treatment for your cancer or is there a social worker at the hospital that you can talk to? Little by little you can get out of this. Praying for you.
Register with NAMI for free therapy. Ask for a referral to a womens shelter. The only thing better than having money is having no money. You WILL leave that shelter to a drastically reduced rental apartment if not completely free for 3-6 months. Immediately sign up for section 8. It’s a four year waiting list but time passes fast.find an extremely odd job like crime scene cleaning or Tyson chicken packaging plant. Gross but pays very very well.
Maybe go in for a life change instead of ending it all. Take your teaching credentials and go teach English in a foreign country where your income goes a lot farther, for instance. What have you got to lose?
I hope you hang in there and get through this. Here’s some options for you,
couch surfing
Roommates
Take up more jobs
Sell a few things and spend minimally until your savings catch up
You struggle now but times will change and you will definitely be safe and happy.
Reminds me of the first 20 years of my adult life. I was stagnant for so long.
Dont give up no matter how hard your life is.. you just have to be smart making money. Monetise your hobby. You can do part time tutor since you work as teacher. You can offer teaching from home to home. Why not sale your service use all free platform to attract potential customers?
I wish I had the solution to your problem but all I can say is I really really hope things start turning around for you soon. It’s not right for life can drown people and others would just watch.