Hi all!
To keep it short and sweet. I’m a 32F with NO LIBIDO. And i mean NO. Zero. Zip.
Timeline:
December-january of 2023 i took two plan B’s. March of 2023 i had an abortion. I found out i was being cheated on that same month. I stayed with him. My libido tanked. I went from wanting sex constantly to never. And my sex drive used to be through the ROOF.
I started oral birth control (Yaz) in January of 2024 because i thought i didn’t want to have sex because i was scared of getting pregnant again. I stayed in the relationship miserable for 2 years.
My libido never returned and only got worse. I didn’t even want to masturbate. I left him in January of this year. I’ve been on birth control now for almost a year and a half but have finally made the decision to come off it and have been now for a week.
I don’t even remember what it’s like to want sex. I used to NEED it. Now i feel like i could go without it for the rest of my life. I miss feeling normal. I never think about my abortion – yes it was traumatic at the time but it doesn’t float around in my mind. I can’t figure out what’s wrong with me.