It’s been weeks already. It was very weird, just a casual type thing but with changing behaviors; I was an object, then I was an hourly girlfriend and then I was a complete stranger – a nothing. He dropped me with excuses when I was getting out the hospital, and he was the only reason I had to be out the hospital, so it twisted my sanity once he told me no and that we’d only talk to messages from now on, so I insulted him and he blocked me. I proceeded to text through uncountable numbers & accounts but kept getting blocked. I went to his home to just talk it out in reality – to say goodbye in reality at least and not only did he not talk to me, he also called the police on me, which ended up being traumatizing for me.
I ended up attempting, horrible hospital stay, I was tied on bed while police was looking for me back at home to get me to a psych ward. I was transferred to a psych ward, where I was tied again for a couple more days. I kept the phone harassment going even with one untied hand. He was forced to change his number.
It all replays in my head and I have used his address to send uncountable orders. After doing so, I sh in some way, always.
I am still in the hospital but being left out very soon, and I have no plans at all -or even a life- to return to. I need to get over this but I don’t know how.
TL;DR: Casual type thing with changing behaviors ends up in hospital stays, being restricted on bed and me using his number and address to make unknown orders. I am still replaying all the images in my head and am truly suffering more than ever. How do I get over it all?