I’m studying for my final and 3rd shot at university entrance (A/L exam in Sri Lanka) , even though I passed, I need to be in the top 1000 to get into engineering as state university is free here and also building a Chrome extension using AI. It’s not making money yet, but I’m trying. Tomorrow he’s giving me $5, money he earned in pain, so I can publish the extension.
I’ve never worked 15 hours a day like him. I’ve made mistakes. I’m trying to be better. But watching him silently endure is wrecking me.
He is verbally abusive which is affecting me for more than 5 years now. I can’t even focus on studies. But, I understand why he is the way he is. I have made some mistakes and wasted so much time due to procrastination, lack of good guidance and unnecessary content consumption of “online gurus” who says getting into uni is worthless.
If you’ve ever been in this kind of position, where your parent gave everything and you felt behind, how did you deal with it?
How do you keep going without being eaten alive by guilt or pressure?
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Stop doing it for him and start doing it for you.
Guilt is simple to get rid of, just rationalise it. Writing it down helps. It’s not easy, but it’s not complicated.
By returning the favor and start taking care of him as soon as you start making money.