Location: north east United Kingdom
I need some advice, I’m a 19 year old pregnant girl from the uk I’m 7 months pregnant. So for some context I have been with my partner for 2 years and we were in love I genuinely thought he was the one for me, I found out 3 months into my pregnancy that he’s been cheating on me for 3 months of my pregnancy with a client. Since then our relationship has gotten very very toxic I did things I regret he did too there’s been a lot of manipulation and just overall very toxic. His mental health has been very low aswell trying to kill himself on multiple occasions even going as far as to crash his car into a wall and other cars. Nobody has knew accept my partner how much I’ve been struggling with my mental health over the past few months, I was in care since I was 12 and I’m a looked after child so I have social services already involved with me. I feel like a complete failure with no career and not much of a bright future. I’m moving out of my carers home in the next 2 weeks which is also very overwhelming because I’m scared about affording it all and living alone and being a single parent as that was my biggest fear. Last night I was anxious all day and stressed about moving out and affording it and then also my ex partner went out on the night picking up girls and was out till 4 in the morning. It wouldn’t be so painful if we were split for longer but we were just on holiday last week and it’s been so on and off the last few months between us that it hurt a lot when he did that. I was hoping he would focus on himself and the baby and give me peace for the rest of my pregnancy as he’s been getting tinder and messaging women after I found he was cheating which stressed me out a lot. Looking back now it wasn’t as much of a big deal but it felt like my world just came crashing down again and with everything built up over the past few months I just wanted to end it this wasn’t the life I wanted I’m beyond scared doing this alone especially since I don’t have a support system like my ex partner does. So last night I went to the train station with the intention to jump infront of it. I drove there and just sat in my car and cried I couldn’t do it I didn’t want to I love my baby so much and I can’t hurt her and she needs her man I’m just beyond scared of the future and just wanted to escape it. My ex partner saw my location as we have locations on for each other and called the police. The police came and got me and took me home they informed me a safe guarding thing will be put into place. Since I’ve already been with social services I’m beyond scared they’re going to take my baby away from me when she’s born. I want to make it clear I could never hurt my baby that’s why I didn’t hurt my self I just cried and thought about her. So could anyone please advice any social workers in the uk.