Like millions of other people out there in the world, I have a terrible ex-boyfriend.
Listing everything he’s done to both me and others would become a novel. I know that he is a toxic individual that brutalizes my mental health. I’ve been dealing with him for three years. Yet despite all the ways I know that he is awful, I still miss him terribly and sometimes still want to be with him.
I’ve done everything I know to do to get over a breakup. I’ve done journaling, therapy, muting him on Facebook, not talking to him for weeks on end (for legal reasons I can’t cut him off entirely), writing down a list of all of the reasons why it was a bad relationship, changed my medication, everything.
And I’m STILL stuck in this cycle where he has some sort of power over me. I always thought that I would have enough self-respect to drop a toxic rope. I’m horrified with myself to know that this clearly isn’t the case.
I’m sure I’m not the only lady out there who has found herself stuck on a terrible person, but WOW does it suck.