Even tiny amounts of THC have made me feel borderline psychotic in the past, so I always swore I’d never touch psychedelics. But something in me cracked, I felt hopeless, suicidal, and desperate for change. So I planned my first-ever mushroom trip… and perhaps out of despair for a rapid change I started with what they call “a heroic dose” which is totally not advised for beginners.
I lemon-teked 3.5g of mushrooms (which amplifies the dose even further), waited… and nothing happened. I thought they must have expired as they’d been sitting in a drawer forever. The next day, still in pain and needing something to change, I lemon-teked a new batch of 3.5g of a more potent strain. Still nothing. I thought I was scammed.
Angry and disappointed, I called the store. They were shocked it hadn’t worked and offered to send me another batch for free. When they asked which strain, I boldly said, “Give me the strongest one you’ve got”, thinking I might have some rare genetic resistence to psilocybin. They sent a batch with the name “Enigma”, ngl the name itself made me a bit uncomfortable… but I said fuck it. However they told me to wait one day to avoid tolerance.
Here’s the twist: I never even needed to take the Enigma.
The morning I woke up to take it, everything had changed. I felt alive. No visuals, no peak, no ego death.. but something massive had shifted. My mind was clear. My depression was gone. Hope had returned. It was like my soul had been rewired overnight.
That’s when I truly understood why they call them magic mushrooms.
Edit: Just to be clear, this is my personal experience, not medical advice. Psychedelics can be powerful and unpredictable, especially at high doses. If you’re thinking about trying them for the first time, I’d strongly recommend starting low, having a trusted sitter or at least a trip-killer (like benzodiazepines or anti-psychotics if available) on hand, just in case things take a dark turn. Better safe than sorry.
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What is your day to day thoughts like now compared to pre-trip?
I’m curious about your maths, 3.5 + 3.5 is 7 so where did you take the other 5g?
This is awesome for you, just wanted to say congrats on breaking through! 🙏
isn’t the afterglow the best
So the tripping never kicked in?
I’m glad to hear it helped. I had a very beautiful and healing experience with mushrooms. I ended up just sitting in nature and crying because I was so moved by the beauty of nature.
Trip-killers exist?! Mind-blown. Tbh, I’ve always loved the idea of magic mushrooms, but I’ve only ever done it a couple times in my life because I’m always fearful of a bad trip.
So you didn’t actually experience a “trip”? No vusials ?
Start slow with Enigma. I don’t know how much you’re planning on taking, but I’d highly recommend starting with no more than 1.5 – 2gs, and even that is still a lot for Enigma. It would suck to accidentally take too much and end up traumatizing yourself.
Have you ever heard about Internal Family Systems therapy? I’m not a therapist, but I’ve been researching it a bit. Sounds like shrooms give you direct access to Self, in that context.
Is it legal in any U.S. state? I think California once attempted to legalize it.
This sounds like some serious BS. 7g and felt nothing? I’d venture those were not psilocybin mushrooms, especially if you “called the store.” If you’re in the States, whatever you bought was poison.
Are you on an SSRI? Any other meds? Might explain your minimal reaction