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So basically I have a group of 4 (myself included – 19F) where we often find any multiplayer games we can to play together, we’re all from all over the place minus me and one member who know each other irl. So, usually everything is fine and we have a really good laugh but last night I just got really upset at stupid things on this zombie shooter we’ve been playing for months. I was angry I got left behind at the very end of the final level and began to say how mad I was and began pettily commenting that I’m so glad they survived etc. it’s a small thing but I know I messed up with it. The main reason I was so mad was purely my own fault, I’m very bad at video games generally due to poor eyesight and generally being a dumbass and usually feel like the weakest link of the group, which I’m usually able to laugh abt with the others and we all end up doing really dumb shit during playing like running off the edge of a map or setting ourselves on fire. I was so upset as it was the final section of the final level of the entire game and I didn’t get the achievement bcs I got swarmed by a bunch of zombies right as we were loading the boat (which triggers the cutscene when everyone arrived)
I know this isn’t a huge deal but I know it hurt my friends and I regret it a lot. I have been under a lot of stress lately due to multiple irl factors and game night for all of us is meant to be a fun little thing and I ruined that purely due to not keeping my mouth shut. I know my friends will forgive me and it’s not friendship ending thank Gods but knowing I hurt them over a stupid game sucks ass. Thanks for reading of ya did but I can’t tell if I fucked up.
Edit: I should also point out our game nights are often late. Like in UK time (where 3/4 of us are from) it’s usually 10pm-3am or lster etc.
TL;DR I got killed right at the end of the final level of a game we’d been playing for months and took it out on my friends
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Just apologize and say you’ve reflected on your poor behaviour and hope everyone can forgive you and you hope to have many more fun and positive interactions with them moving forward.
Sometimes being petty can be seen way worse than actual insulting somebody.
But I don’t think it’s that deep here. You should apologise. They should apologise too, because I think it’s a shitty thing to finish the last level without waiting for the “weakest” player when you played all of it together.