Before I started high school, I developed an aggressive ped*philic drive, but it went away when I started high school.
However, the autopedophilia aspect of it never went away, and I’ve had it for more than a decade now. I still find it arousing imagining being a little girl.
I’m also a highly sensitive person, and this condition has devastated my life very much. It’s made me feel weak, unmanly, incapable, being a failure in life, etc., weak like a child. I also struggle very badly with common sense. Also, due to life experiences, I have a very submissive and passive nature.
Ive never been in a relationship as I’m a complete loner, but I worry about ever getting married. Although I don’t really feel much an attraction to anyone underage, I feel a bit aroused at just the thought of having a daughter. This I think is very
I really hate being around people and dislike being around anyone, so I’m never around people, much less anyone underage.
I’m a very isolated person really.
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I don’t really have any advice for you, I’m sorry. I just wanted to say that even though it’s a problem I have absolutely no idea what to do about, I recognize the fact that people who deal with these kinds of thoughts and feelings really don’t have a real path to getting help for it is a very real problem.