It started when I was a kid, 9 maybe a little younger. I started watching porn. I wasn’t addicted off the bat, but thats when it started developing. Up until 14, I would watch porn every now and then. I would also start developing fantasies. After 14 however, It started going terrible. Now instead of jerking off to porn, I would jerk off to celebrities and actresses. As time progressed, I started getting into erotic roleplays as these celebrities. I would come up with very perverted shit, but nothing illegal, and my limits stopped at gore, still it was very dishonorable (being in to piss, shit even, . I would also sometimes watch porn too. And then it got worse and worse, I started developing fantasies like being cuckolded, getting pegged, cis-women as trans woman, and then also sissification, and also being a femboy. I changed the way I jerk off. I sort of rub it like women in porn rub their clitoris, and I get off like that. I’ve become a degenerate. I don’t even need porn to get off, or anything risque. I just need a picture of the celebrities face, and I instantly have this impulse. Only thing to my credit is that i don’t download porn, and I never watched anything illegal. But even then I don’t think anyone has had as rough of an addiction as me. Do I still deserve love, knowing that I have such a horrid addiction
How do I deal with this addiction, and get past it?
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Of course you deserve love man….You just need to find some additional outlet when you get these urges.
Maybe try shroooms one time. On an empty stomach, get a few whole dry ones and grind them up, take 2-3g of the result, mix with lemon juice and consume it like a shot. Or mix with apple sauce and eat it.
that’s deep shit..
i would say you start by not touching your dick for i would say 1-2 weeks.. after that u dont masturbate u just reached a checkpoint- then keep going
i mean i got off to some weird shit but piss, trans etc there should be the border for at least hetero..
u may seem a bit confused from all that fapping but we get u back on track
Just realize that they’re doing the same position no matter that video it is
Just the fake moans are in a different voice
umm this sounds like having kinks which is perfectly okay. if it’s interfering with your ability to function/accomplish tasks in your daily life, thats when you should start worrying. but, it’s okay to be into “weird” things. It’s okay to dream about pegging and being a femboy. I would encourage you to explore that part of yourself in a safe place and try to understand why you feel so much shame about it. imo, femboys are amazing, maybe it might be cool to try out dressing like one and seeing how that makes you feel without judgement.
You are hard on yourself. Fetishism, ones that don’t harm anyone or animals , is not necessarily “degenerate” you just have a smaller pool of people who will play along with you.
The porn habit may slow or stop you in building loving connections with real humans, but that only hurts you.
I am sure there are fetish communities you could talk to that could help guide you.
There are 12 step groups to help w these addictions
https://saa-recovery.org/meetings/