I’m 19m, my little sister is 12, and our older sister is 26. Over a year ago was when my little sister was diagnosed with leukemia. ofc it hit everyone super hard, and i wanted to help her and my family. but, this was around the same time i was supposed to be moving out for my university. i had a lot of options, especially in state, but i decided to go out of state. my mom and my older sister encouraged me to go, and that they would have it handled. so, i left.
fast forward a few months, and i’m having the worst time of my life in my university. not only did some really fucked up shit happen to me, but i was struggling a bit financially. even though my omma/ my older sister are i’d say pretty well off, i didn’t wanna ask for their help. luckily, the following months i would make a lot of friends ands develop a lot of good relationships with people in the city. and now, i’m comfortable living where i live.
this past week however, i visited my family and my sister for the first time since initially leaving. currently, my sister is undergoing chemo, so it’s been rough for her. it’s been rough for everyone. but, when i saw my family, they all greeted me with love and care. i know why, but i felt guilty as soon as i saw them. with my little sister, my guilt was at its worst.
she’s doing the best she can, and she’s God damn strong for withstanding all of the treatment she has been going through. i’ll play games with her or read stories to her or watch videos with her whenever i can, and she’s so happy. she’s never once cried when i was around, and she’s done nothing but laugh and smile when i see her.
but, i know that’s not what her condition is like. it’s not all good. it’s getting better, and my family is telling me to not worry and to go back to my university soon, but it’s still worrisome. i’d be able to transfer universities closer to home out of my current university. however, i’ve already made a lot of relationships and promises to people in my university. my girlfriend is from there as well.
i feel like the decision should be easy, but it’s not. should i stay in my current university or transfer closer to my family?