TIFU by skipping my Abilify to do shrooms.
(Edit: I’m aware that my decision to forgo my meds was totally stupid, I don’t need 100 people telling me the same thing.)
Tagged NSFW due to talk of drug use.
This didn’t actually happen today, it was recent, but I thought it might be a good story to post on this sub.
Just to preface this, this post is not meant to encourage drug use, especially use of illicit drugs. Psilocybin use is decriminalized where I live, and you can even find magic mushrooms at some dispensaries.
I wanted to take some shrooms, but my antipsychotic medication causes the psilocybin to have no effect on me. So, I decided to go off my antipsychotics for a short while. I was planning on getting back on them after I did shrooms, but I really wanted to experience a psilocybin trip.
I have bipolar 1 disorder with psychosis. The first week or so without antipsychotics went totally fine. However, one day, all of a sudden, my brain just completely broke. I didn’t believe I existed. I don’t remember much from when I was in psychosis, but apparently, I was repeatedly asking if I exist. Eventually, I had to be hospitalized because I wouldn’t stop flopping around, and it was causing injury. The reason why I was flopping around was because I didn’t believe that anything actually existed, and I thought that if I flopped, I would be able to escape from the world in a sense.
When I eventually came to my senses, I was extremely confused. The first thing I asked was, “Did I die and go to hell?” to which I was told no, I was simply having a mental health crisis. I was still manic, but no longer in full psychosis. I was definitely feeling lingering effects of psychosis, but I was at least able to function.
TL;DR: I skipped my antipsychotics to do shrooms, and I went manic because of it. Remember to take your meds, everyone!
TIFU by skipping my antipsychotics to do shrooms
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I’m really sorry to hear this, I’m happy you’re taking your medication again. Great to be able to be past the FU now and onto better things!
A true fuck caused by poor choices rather than the ones where the OP has a poor outcome from a perfectly rational choice! I’m glad that you came through ok.
I tried to lower my meds to try ayahuasca, and ended up attempting you know what. Little trip to the psych ward, it was very relaxing as the mom of a little kid. I will never try it again. I’ll just be on 5 meds forever. I didn’t even get to do the aya.
Idk what dose of abilify you’re on, but if it’s a relatively low dose then you can just take extra shrooms to still experience a trip. I’m on a pretty low dose of abilify and I’ve tried both stopping my meds and taking double the dose of shrooms and upping the shrooms dose has worked best for me and helped me avoid negative mental health effects. Of course this is subjective and probably not helpful at all if you’re on a high dose, but just wanted to throw that out there that it is possible to trip while also on your meds. Might not be the most intense trip but it’ll do imo
“I think, therefore I am”
I haven’t been able to trip over a year after stopping abilify, I don’t understand it
Mannnnn. Maybe thats why it takes so much mushrooms to do anything to me, im pretty sure im on abilify, if abilify is the aripiprazole one
Sheesh, man. That’s some scary stuff. Glad to hear you’re doing better. Maybe just forget about the shrooms though.
I got anxiety reading this. I have taken anti psychotic for 20 years and I fear what would happen if I skipped a week.
Well that was stupid
Maybe do a bit more digging on what happens when people who experience psychosis take shrooms or lsd or dmt. You may have dodged a bullet.
guys you should not be taking psychedelics while on SSRIs
Did you ever actually take the shrooms or just end up going into psychosis after going cold turkey on the abilify for a week?
Why would you even think about taking that at all if you have psychosis. You’re treading on thin ice.
Where do you live that mushrooms are sold at dispensaries? Sorry to hear this happened, sounds scary. I would keep taking your meds and not do shrooms.
I take Abilify but I just take a big dose of shrooms and it works like a charm
Doing psychedelics when you have a history of psychosis is crazy.
That’s gotta be the definition of playing with fire.
Something similar happened to a friend of mine recently. How long after you got back on your antipsychotics did it take you to level out?
Having BP 1 with a history of psychosis and then choosing to do shrooms sure is something.
should’ve renamed the post to “i decided to take action without thinking”
… You have mental health issues and choose to take shrooms.. a psychedelic… Please at least try and grow up and learn. And don’t do psychedelics.
This is like a type-1 diabetic being like “well I just thought I’d try not taking my insulin and eating a bunch of shit.” Like… Why?
Worth noting that if you are psychotic or have severe mental health issues, you should NOT be taking psychedelics like mushrooms or LSD. They are well know for waking up dormant psychosis in people.
With those kind of mental health issues it’s worth just staying clear of all drugs really.
Glad you’re ok now OP.
I know multiple people have questioned your decision to stop the medicines to do drugs, and you saying “I don’t need 100 people to tell me it’s stupid”, but there’s more going on here than just telling you that it was a stupid idea to stop the meds: Without medicines you can be a danger to you surroundings. This time you questioned reality by flopping, but you could’ve easily gotten into a car and try to help everyone escape the matrix.
To stop meds to try drugs is stupid, yes, but having a history with psychoses and stopping meds because you want to try psychotics is beyond preposterous and selfish.
I really hope you never stop your medicines again to experiment with drugs. Don’t fuck around with others safety.
What the actual fuck
I’ve learnt my lesson the hard way and take my meds every day. I remember chucking them out and few months later the full deal of psychosis, mania and the crash of depression. I don’t do any drugs as I like not being in hospital (24 years now).
Glad you are okay.
Do you realise we don’t need drugs as we get all the symptoms for free if not medicated? Euphoria, fast paced, hallucinating etc.
Glad to hear you’re safe but I feel obliged to reiterate that psychedelics and psychotic disorders don’t mix
They have a very real chance of worsening symptoms permanently and/or the trip itself being extremely dangerous. You in a sense dodged a potential bullet by being admitted before attempting it.
Please don’t try this again. I don’t think there’s anything worse you could do for your condition than go off meds and take powerful drugs.
> Edit: I’m aware that my decision to forgo my meds was totally stupid, I don’t need 100 people telling me the same thing.
How about 101?
My wife had to be sectioned yesterday. Glad you got through it OP.
Yeah psychedelics are not safe for people with BPD or schizophrenia. There are probably other mental disorders that don’t play well with psychedelics, but those are the big 2 that I know should absolutely, in no circumstances, be mixed with psychedelics.
Sounds like OP didn’t even get to take the drugs, which is probably for the best. Who knows how bad his phychosis could have got if he was tripping.
“I don’t need 100 people telling me that was stupid” i think that’s exactly what you need.
If you are at constant risk of having a psychosis and take FUCKING SHROOMS, you can’t be trusted and need to be institutionalized.
Like seriously. You were/are a danger to society
This is a good example of why I feel like all drugs should be legal.
If psychedelics were legal it would be more common knowledge that psychedelics and mental disorders are a big no no. Not saying your decision would have been any different, but it might have been different. Glad you’re ok, who knows how many people have permanently fucked themselves trying drugs everyone says is fine not knowing any better.
As someone diagnosed with bipolar 1, and on antipsychotics i read up on all the literature surrounding shrooms, and I got a resounding “don’t do that shit, it makes you go into psychosis”.
Oh… honey no lol.
Who needs shrooms when you can just trip balls by not taking your meds
OP really is an idiot dipshit
A person who is diagnosed and on medication formental illness especially bipolar, mania, depression, schizophrenia, psychosis, etc. Should never use hallucinigenics or anything that gets you high. Doing mushroom just exacerbate and worsens the condition and fucks up the brain more.
I literally watched 4 friends over the span of 5 years self-medicating with weed and shrooms and go from have anxiety, to depression, to mania to bipolar with psychosis.
I’ve had mushrooms just like this so…congratulations?