hi, i’m a 19 year old girl that was SA’d by my brother when i was 10 and he was 13. i thought my parents would kick him out as soon as they could for my sake but to this day they haven’t. even tho outside of what he’s done to me he’s always been an unemployed twat that’s failed out of everything. my dad’s promised me before that he’d get him out but kept prolonging it saying they just wanna put him in one more course or try one more time to get him a job.
one time when he was acting up he did kick him out but my abuser called him crying and he let him back in. then he said it’s hard to turn his back on his child so he can’t kick him out. my mom has always blatantly favoured my abuser so there’s always been a mutual hate there but id been close to my dad despite everything until recently; i stopped talking to him for unrelated reasons and i just started thinking about it all and i really think it’s unfair they won’t kick him out. i had sm hope that when i turned 15 and he was 18 and they could legally kick him out, that they would because i didn’t think they’d continue making me live with him knowing what he did but the fact that they actually did left me really disappointed and feeling unprioritized.
i don’t feel safe and i hate having to be stuck on a floor because he’s where i wanna go and i hate feeling like i need to totally cover up in my house. i fucking hate hearing his voice and when he screams and punches shit when he’s playing games i wear headphones 24/7 bc of it. i have nightmares where he’s holding me down
he’s 23 now. a couple weeks ago he literally left his door open with his child sex doll in full view and me and my 15 year old brother saw. when he complained to my mom she said just ignore it and “it’s small because he likes asian women and they’re small”
im in uni so i guess i could move into a dorm but its expensive and my cats and everything i need is in my room and it used to be my safe space. i wanna know if this is normal like if most parents were in this situation they’d do what mine are doing. i kind of accepted it growing up like i didn’t really make a fuss because i thought my feelings weren’t important enough but it’s really really getting to me and i resent my parents so bad for it now
prob my worst crashout was last year bc i was finally going to see my long distance bf for the first time and last minute my mom booked a trip for her and my abuser to the same country for the same dates as me. that was pretty much the only time i genuinely got upset at my dad for not kicking him out bc literally why are we at the point where he’s being taken on an expensive trip and treated like an equal to me. i’ve always done everything right and gotten good grades and it’s gotten me nowhere because he’s done fuck all except be a pedo and flunk school and he’s faced no consequences.
and when i was a kid and did go to my dad about it because i was struggling he sort of downplayed it saying he’s just a hormonal teen boy and that it “wasn’t about me personally he just had urges” is it really not that serious bc he was 13 like if your 13 year old son did what my abuser did would you kick him out when he turned 18 because idk if im being unreasonable with my expectations. my dad literally never stands for shit he lets everything slide to “keep the peace”
im at my wits end here i just genuinely need input because i feel like im in some alternate reality
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