19F. For context, ive always felt a little strange, a little “removed” from the world in general and i managed up till now because i have a supportive family environment / people that care about me. but ive always thought too much about damn near everything, and that’s stopped me from doing most things. plus the fear of being an additional financial burden made me prefer to stay home and read. but now it feels like all the reading ive done/ all my life experiences so far havent amounted to much because i did something wrong/ disassociated too much. i want to be normal. i want to be an adult. a properly functioning one. why do i feel blank so often? why do i feel like i need to constantly fill my brain with info because im always behind? how do i get good at knowing things? is it too late to start over? i want to know about politics, about the economy, about human behaviour etc. i literally feel like im a bot that needs to be programmed overnight. is this just me being negative? or do most people feel like they struggle with immediately recalling things/ bits of information they come across.
ive been sleepwalking through life and have only just realised. is it too late?
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you are 19, your life still has to start.
You’re not behindyou’re just waking up. And that awareness you’re feeling? It’s not failure, it’s growth. A lot of people feel exactly like this at 19 (and honestly, even at 29 or 39). Life isn’t a race to “know enough” or have everything figured out it’s messy, layered, and constantly changing. Feeling blank or like you’re playing catch-up doesn’t make you broken; it makes you human. You can start now. Start small. Stay curious. Learn a little every day. You’re not a bot you’re a person finally beginning to live on purpose. That matters more than anything that came before.
It is never too late but please remember you are nineteen and you appear to be walking around with the weight of the world on your shoulders. You are young you have every opportunity still available to you. If you like reading at home what is the problem with that. If you want to go and do something then go and do it no one is stopping you except yourself. There is no such thing as normal we are all weird and odd in our own ways but that is because we are all unique.
It is easy to compare yourself to others and feel like you are behind or you are missing this that or the other. The thing is we all move through life at different paces and we cannot compare ourselves to others. You don’t need to be anyone but yourself. You will never know everything but that is the joy of life we are constantly learning.
It is never too late but please remember you are nineteen and you appear to be walking around with the weight of the world on your shoulders. You are young you have every opportunity still available to you. If you like reading at home what is the problem with that. If you want to go and do something then go and do it no one is stopping you except yourself. There is no such thing as normal we are all weird and odd in our own ways but that is because we are all unique.
It is easy to compare yourself to others and feel like you are behind or you are missing this that or the other. The thing is we all move through life at different paces and we cannot compare ourselves to others. You don’t need to be anyone but yourself. You will never know everything but that is the joy of life we are constantly learning.
Literally throw your phone away and get an old phone that only does phone calls. It’s Killing you