I dont know if its just my personality or there is something more serious I should look into..
I don’t know how to miss people. No matter how much I love someone, if they’re away for a while, I can live my life without feeling like I miss them. But when I see them again, I feel this overwhelming love and realize how much I actually missed them. Then when they’re gone again, I go back to forgetting about them.
This is why I don’t reach out unless they reach out first (not an excuse) but also because I don’t want to bother anyone and I’m scared of embarrassing myself. I feel like I constantly need to be reminded and reassured that people care about me, even though I’d never show it or ask for it.
It makes me seem cold, but it’s confusing to me and contradictory because I’m a huge people pleaser too. I don’t hold grudges, not because I’m forgiving, but because if someone is nice to me once, I forget everything they’ve ever done. I start doubting myself, thinking maybe I was being biased or dramatic or misunderstood them. It’s hard for me to hate people, but it’s harder to trust them.
I’m full of love, but I don’t know how to feel it and connect with people.
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Talking to a mental health professional is a good idea either way and they can tell if you think an assessment is warranted.
Honestly, you should get checked because living in confusion is no way to live. What feels like just your personality might actually be the missing key to why you love so deeply but feel so distant.
I literally feel the same way as you. If you go to a professional, could you please update so I know if I should too ?
It’s this your own opinion or have you been feed this by someone you know if so what are their credentials.What you have said is a normal response for some we are different and we all behave in different ways and no one can say whether it’s right all wrong.
Like anything though if you have concerns for example you can’t breathe you goto a lung specialist if you can’t see properly you go to an optometrist.
All I see from what you have said is either someone has put this in your head or your self diagnosing and that alone is not Heathy.
A Pill for every ill is very dangerous too
I feel this. Thought I was just weird. Could be autism, could be something else. Getting checked helped me make sense of stuff. Worth a shot.
A mental health professional should be able to figure things out. Maybe its autism, maybe some other form of neurkdivergence or just a quirk of personality they can help you figure things out