So yeah I don’t really know where to start. I’m 17 and I haven’t have a relationship. Every since I was younger I have always told myself I don’t want a relationship however there has been this growing kinda loneliness and annoyance in the back of my head. I’m not a good looking person but I’ve been asked out a few times by people I don’t particularly like but I remember when I was 13 or 14 there was girl I had a huge crush on and her friend asked me out for her and I said no and now I really regret it because later she moved away and yeah I wish I had done it. This has happened multiple times with guys and girls and I feel like such an idiot but the idea of having a relationship is just so overwhelming I begun to push my feelings of love the the side and trying to ignore them and I don’t know why and I can’t say I don’t want a relationship anymore as the feelings of loneliness is alot more prevalent. I was kinda wondering how I could get over this fear of having a relationship.
TL;DR I have a fear of having a relationship which has led me to not having a relationship. How can I fix this? ty