so i’ve been having irregular bleeding after sex for a while now. i’ve stupidly ignored it because i was scared to find out what was wrong. i’m 20 years old.
anyway. i went to the doctor yesterday and was checked. apparently i have cervical ectropion and they want to refer me for a colposcopy to rule out cancer or precancerous cells.
i am scared. the past 24 hours have been a mess of me worrying that i have cancer right this second and won’t find out for at least 8 weeks, having to tell my partner what’s going on and reassuring him that he didn’t cause this and it’s not his fault, telling my mum.
the thing that scares me the most is the fact that this isn’t supposed to happen to people my age.
i’m scared it’s going to hurt. i’m scared my partner is going to end up believing this is his fault. or that my family won’t support me.
everything is just scary right now.