In my mind I know I do not want kids. I don’t think it’s right to bring kids into the world. I also do not want to ruin my body or go through pregnancy and birthing.
My instincts are very strong to have a kid. This is where I’m confused. I have the instincts to get pregnant. A part of me wants to experience it (because yolo). I’ve never been in a relationship and have never had sex. I want to get sterilized before doing any of that. What if I regret it? What if I fall so madly in love with a man I want to have his kid? Idek what love with a man feels like. I’ve never been asked out or anything.
At the end of the day, I know it’s not right and I believe i would regret bringing new life into the world. There’s just this nagging piece of me that wants that. It’s just my instincts I guess.
I have no problems with adopting. I just feel a part of me wants a child so badly lol.