How can i forget someone i cant forget?

How can i forget a celebrity i kinda fell in love with?I know this might sound stupid,But for the past 8 months shes been in my mind 24/7.I thought of going to meet her,but a short video call can cost up to 20 grand.I tried unadding,blocking and every other possible method.I even tried working my ass off for that 20 grand but im a kid and even though im making steady progress even when ill reach 20 grand(if i do)spending it all on 30 seconds would be useless.This is all im thinking of everyday and everything outside is perfect,but inside my brain i feel like im dying