I am not going to lie I am drunk right now. Matter fact, just got off the toilet throwing up. I smoked some weed hours ago and was high when I started drinking. The alcohol hit me harder than it usually does and I started throwing up. Fortunately I was at my own place. When it happened. Anyways, I need to wuit alcohol. I know it’s no good for me.
I went 14 days with no alcohol and went back to square 0 when I decided to take JUST ONE SHOT for the old times. Alcohol is ruining my relationship, my life. The cravings keep getting me back into drinking and I keep coming back for more. Please, if anyone used to be an alcohol and managed to find a way out, help me. I always believed that when I say no, it means no. I said no to alcohol and here I am still drinking. Disappointed in myself. I didn’t drink until I was 24.5 years old because I seen my step dad treat my mom like shit when he was drunk. I feel like I am becoming him with my girlfriend. Also I want to mention I love my step dad, he made mistakes when he was drunk but he is a good man. I am proud of him for quitting alcohol but disappointed in myself for becoming an alcoholic.
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You are not starting from zero, you made it 14 days. That’s proof you can do it again, and for even longer.
You are self aware, honest, and reaching out, that’s strength, not weakness. You are not alone in this.
Go to an AA meeting and keep going back.
One day at a time. Don’t focus on forever, just focus on today. That’s how change starts.
AA is a hell of a drug. Don’t think of it as a religious saviour as much as “A power consumes me to drink so why the hell can’t some form of power help me stop”
Your awareness is a great step and like a commenter said, you did a short stint you can stretch into a longer win 🏆
You saw what alcohol did to someone you love, and you don’t want to repeat that. That awareness is powerful.
Don’t be too hard on yourself. You’ve abstained before and you can do it again. Find distractions like exercise or anything that makes you happy. Whenever you have the urge to drink, fall into your alternate hobby. Repeat every single time and ignore cravings. Cravings last like 15-20 min so I know you can outlast them if you work towards it.
You’re not weak you’re at war with something that wants you to forget who you are, and the fact that you’re still fighting means you haven’t lost. Slip-ups don’t erase progress, but silence and shame will get support, get honest, and get out before the bottle becomes your biography.
Communicate! Addiction is lonely untill you communicate
I wish you the best of luck, OP! So happy that you are taking this step to get sober.
Maybe see if you need to work on slowing down a bit. Some people will drink 1 or 2 bottles of wine in 1 sitting.
Some people work one step at a time. Dont beat yourself up over 2 weeks. You can always try again. Everyones at their own pace
I dont wanna encourage anyone who may be suffering from alcoholism but sometimes its better to wean down.
Like if ur doing 20%, work down to 10%. Then work down to 5%. Work down to 4. Or alcohol free. But keep an eye on how much ur doing too. There are some drink calculators online
AA is also a good option but more saying as someone whos been down that road sometimes its hell cold turkeying.
Which tbh based on the 2 weeks you have what needs to be done u just gotta be in the environments where ur not temped
N if i recall you can die from alcohol withdrawls in extreme cases
Read/listen to This Naked Mind . Changed my whole perspective on alcohol
Naltrexone can help ease the cravings and support sobriety. See your doctor about meds for detox.
Then to stay sober: therapy, group support (AA or smart recovery), exercise, volunteer, meds if you need them for anxiety/ depression/ sleep or other mental health issues.
Many alcoholics had severe childhood trauma and we have much better ways of treating that now. Many alcoholics also tell themselves the alcohol helps (sleeping, think, be social, deal with pain, be a better whatever), but that all becomes a delusional dream as alcoholism is a progressive disease. It greatly increases risks for dementia and cancer.
Make some appointments today and start on your journey.
I also am struggling. Hitting a 12 hour, 24 hour mark is what I keep trying to focus on, while reminding myself that I can say no to the first one. If I start, I keep going. Then I feel awful and want to wake up and have one to help feel normal while I “go back to not drinking”.. but the first drink is the one I shouldn’t have said yes to and it starts a cycle
Check out r/microdosing and search “alcohol” in the subreddit
Rome was not built in a day. One day is still an accomplishment 14 is even more. It’s only human to step back every once in a while the fact that you can acknowledge that is huge. Remember to give yourself credit on those times and use that as leverage to move forward. My fiancé passed away from liver failure, and cirrhosis of the liver. Unfortunately, he let the sickness win. However, something about that helped me with my alcoholism and it’s not easy. It still isn’t easy however, I just try for myself to pick things to keep me occupied whether it’s going outdoors doing gardening doing a puzzle Playing a game hanging out with people anything to get my mind off of it. We are all human life isn’t made to be easy if it is we’re not moving forward. You have this. Also now nowadays there is things out there AA yes and or there is also Medication if you choose to go that route that will help with withdrawal symptoms and documenting how many drinks you have in a day, sometimes writing it down and seeing it physically for yourself how much you had will initiate a change in yourself. One step at a time one day at a timeone minute at a time one second at a time. If you can’t do it for you right now, do it for the ones you love and build on that so that eventually you are doing it for you because you are important too!
You may need to quit altogether, but I think sometimes it can become a psychological obsession. If you build up that first drink into a catastrophe, you’re more likely to make that catastrophe happen for real (getting obliterated) because it’s already a catastrophe in your mind. You can dispel that obsession a bit by eating a big meal, having some fizzy 5% alcoholic drinks, and falling asleep in front of the TV. “Look, I drank and there was no catastrophe.”
It’s not like alcohol is so important that you need it in your life to be happy, but at this point, it’s become an obsession. If you can learn that it isn’t all that, you might not even want to drink anymore.
I would ditch the hard liquor altogether though; it’s just too easy to get into trouble with hard liquor.
Sometimes you have to go through the day in 15 minutes intervals…. stay in the present.
It is extremely hard to do this alone.
Try AA and, if you can, one on one counselling.
Relapses are normal.
The first step is to accept that alcohol has TOTAL control over you, which is why even a single drink will cause you to binge. (Admitting complete defeat is not something humans do well )
The second one is to take it one day at a time.
Getting external/professionap help will make things less difficult.
Take care.
The easiest way to quit something is to forget it exists .
You might need to let your girlfriend do the grocery shopping.
When you need snaks go to a family dollar instead of a dollar general.
You may have to shop at a target instead of Walmart.
You may want to shop online.
When the craving comes. Observe the craving.
Live with the craving. Recognize it’s there , it’s healing you. It doesn’t need to be satisfied with the drug. It just needs to be observed.
Sit with it.
Then it will fade
If it gets stronger
Sit with it longer
And if your working
Work harder.
Eventually it will pass.
Seek help on this, sometimes this can have negative withdraws.
Feel you:(
You can do it! Those 14 days are proof!
One day at a time. Sometimes a minute at a time. If you remove all the alcohol from your house and at least temporarily avoid people you usually drink with. Every time you feel the want, you gotta focus on the people and reasons you want to keep in your life.
Try an AA meeting, you can just go and listen, talk to people there when you’re ready. If that’s not your jam, there is other helpful options. You have to focus on being honest and holding yourself accountable for your choices. Celebrate each day you make it without drinking. If you slip, remember… tomorrow is a new day, and you can try harder. Don’t give up. I believe in you!
Awe man. I totally get where your coming from and how you feel. I’m a heroin addict, sober for 5 years. I’ve tried to get sober maybe 15 times, many of those with detox and rehab. This is my longest sober time, but I never take that for granted because I could lose it all at any time.
First, a lot of the times, addiction is an indication of a deeper problem. A LOT of people with addiction get diagnosed with a dual diagnoss when they go to get help for their addiction, because as addicts, much of the time we’re self medicating. Turns out I’m bipolar. As long as I take my meds regularly as prescribed as I work on my addiction it’s a lot easier to stay sober.
Second, I learned in rehab that once you try to get sober once, even if you relapse, you can never SUCCESSFULLY use again. Meaning, you’ll always remember that sober time that you successfully had, and you’re never going to feel right about drinking again, and be able to do it guilt free. The guilt is going to affect the happy-go-lucky drinking attitude, so it’s never going to be like it used too.
Third, every day you wake up and open your eyes is a new day. Every day you get a fresh start, so just try again tomorrow, and maybe go to 1 AA meeting. You don’t even have to say anything, just walk in and listen. What else do you have better to do? Addiction is scary, because you feel like nobody else feels the way you do and it is an incredibly isolating feeling, but there are thousands of people that are fighting the exact same battle you are. If you don’t like the idea of AA, that’s okay too. Try joining an online group and meeting some people. Talking to people who have been through this helps you realize that it is possible to be successfully sober. Just whatever you do don’t quit trying!
Good luck brother!
You can do it
Taking the first step is huge, keep going
There’s medication to help with the cravings and the withdrawal symptoms. My dad has been an alcoholic for 55 years. Yesterday was 2 months since his last drink. If he can do it, anyone that wants to can. Good luck!
I strongly suggest that you join AA or the alcoholic support group if you’re sincere about quitting in the 14 days that you took or merely a break from it and good luck
Try going to Alcoholics Anonymous. You will meet people who also have the same problems as you. You’ll make new friends and find a new way of life.
Go to an AA meeting asap. There’s help there. If that scares you, call 800-599-5980.
Waiting for my AA meeting to start at the moment.
If that thought is in your head now, you’re already making progress. I’d recommend going to a meeting and using that single (or many) thoughts to help your journey. All the best.