I’m not sure how to start this if im being honest but ive been sitting with this all day, its currently 4 am and i cant sleep because i can’t stop thinking about all of the feelings I’m having about everything and the pain medication wore off. I guess I’d start by saying my partner star (fake name) gave me HSV. I was in the hospital for about 12 hours (over the span of 2 days) due to pain and then intense vomitting after i was given some numbing medication. I’m still waiting to be given the antiviral medication as I was given the test results this morning. I didn’t know she had it and I didn’t know she had an active outbreak when she went down on me, and I definitely didn’t expect this to be my life at 18. I don’t know how to feel about all of this right now, I don’t know if I’m mad, sad, or just disappointed that she didn’t even think about my health when she did this. After i got the phone call i just cried in silence, we sat next to eachother on the bed but i just felt so isolated and alone in that moment, it was just silence and we didn’t speak about it for a while. Well we didn’t even really talk about it.. she said “I can’t believe i gave it to you” i honeslty didnt know how to respond. I have a weak immune system because I have several chronic health issues that cause me to get sick or get infections extremely easily, star knows that.. I just keep asking myself why didn’t she think about it? I have been in pain for about a week but I don’t even know what feels worse, the literal sores on my body or the feeling of betrayal I’m having towards star right now. I just feel so gross and depressed and just like total shit. I was already dealing with the fact that star and I just don’t seem to be working out anymore and then this happens… it’s like the universe is telling me this is as good as it gets for me, that I’m just stuck being with star because no one else is going to want to be with me … I already had hang ups like this because of the fact that I’m trans, autistic, and disabled physically (i use a cane when i go out) so I already ask alot of anyone who’s even interested in me, now this shit is added on top. I’ve been struggling in my relationship and just when I finally thought things were starting to look up for me and star, she gives me HSV when I didnt even know she had it in general?! this has just solidified all of the doubts I’ve been having. I just don’t know what to do. I feel so disgusting and discouraged about myself, my relationship, my future relationships I just wish this was a fucked up nightmare that Is just taking me forever to wake up from. What am I supposed to do.. I thought I had a partner who understands that “I just didn’t think about it” isn’t good enough when it comes to giving and spreading ailments and disease, especially when you’re with someone who’s immune system attacks itself for fun. I’ve never even had a cold sore like on my face before, now im not even able to walk without wanting to collapse from the pain. What am I supposed to do man I just want to hide and forget I even exist right now…
Edit: when I had typed HSV phone had autocorred it to have the 2 because I spent about 3 hours looking that up and was typing it alot. It’s currently 4 am I’m running off an hour of sleep I didn’t notice until I saw the comments and went “huh” that i realized I just made a decently large mistake in the post. I am very sorry for the confusion genuinely didn’t mean to put the 2 part. It’s been a really long day.
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Nasty. Dump her
This betrayal is valid she risked your health knowingly. But her negligence does reflect her respect for you.
Prioritise your health, it’s a manageable condition.
Really sorry to hear that OP.
What is your question though? We can’t give advice without some direction.
How do you know it’s HSV2?? Genital doesn’t mean hsv2. I have hsv1 genitally from my partners oncoming coldsore. Less OB’s. Less shedding. Etc. basically I get a coldsore on my lower half. I haven’t had an OB in 2 years. Also, let’s pretend me and my partner were dating the same person. There’s a higher chance of my partner passing hsv1 onto the other person than me because it “prefers” the mouth area because it’s the oral type and he sheds more orally than I do genitally. Please don’t assume you have HSV2
So she knew she had HSV2 and didn’t tell you? That’s considered assault in some countries.
Even if she doesn’t have active lesions, if she’s not on an antiviral, she can transmit it. Condoms don’t prevent transmission as it’s not passed in bodily fluids, it’s skin to skin.
I have HSV2. It’s not the end of the world. But that she didn’t tell you so you could provide informed consent is assault. I’d be done.
I’m so sorry this happened to you. Look, there are treatments that can help not spread, it won’t cure it, but since it’s probably early enough, it can help. Also, leave her ass. She’s lucky you aren’t sueing her. Even if unintentionally she still gave you a condition that you’ll have forever.
The whole thing about being trapped. It was either her goal, or something. And honestly, breaking up is the best solution. It’s not gonna erase your hurt, and being with her isn’t either. And honestly, be better than her. Remember your hurt and how this feels. And when you meet another lady, be honest. Let it be THEIR decision to walk away. I’m so sorry Star took that from you.
https://www.cdc.gov/std/treatment-guidelines/herpes.htm
Here is a link from the CDC talking about some treatment options. Since you have a weak immune system, it should be covered by insurance.