Hey guys, So my girlfriend (20F) and me (21M) have been together for a year or so now, we’ve been doing long distance for the past 4 months. I used to be a really securely attached guy but in the last few months I’ve had some serious life insecurity (issues with housing, finance etc) and that’s led to a general increase in anxiety which I’ve let seep into my relationship a little bit. Around two months ago I had a panic attack and texted me girlfriend that I’d noticed a bit of a shift in communication between us, she apologised and said she’d text more, I then apologised the next day and said I’d let my anxiety control me and that I didn’t mean to make her feel pressure (which I obviously had). We’d been fine since then up until tonight, I had another random panic attack and while she was out drinking with friends after she’d not messaged me in 3 hours I tried to call her and then asked her if we were all good, she said we were and apologised that she’d not been on her phone. I realise that that’s not ok, she’s had controlling partners in the past and I don’t want that to become a recurring pattern. She’s been struggling quite a bit with depression recently and I really don’t want to become an emotional burden to her, I’m seeing a therapist and trying to work on my attachment. Do you think we will be ok after this evening? I just feel like I made her feel guilty for spending time with her friends. Thanks.
TL;DR
I texted my girlfriend a bunch while she was out with friends and worry that I’ve pushed her away.