Hi please read it all I need opinions cuz I really have no one to ask … I’m currently in a distance relationship with my boyfriend It hasn’t been a long one it’s actually quite recent but we fell for each other quickly (haha I was surprised too) He was the one who fell in love first and then I fell for his personality and the way he treated me From the first day we talked he never ignored me not even once He always talks to me constantly tells me how much he loves me compliments me and even when he’s busy he still makes time to message me or at least lemme know what’s going on so I don’t overthink or feel neglected
Everything felt so natural Sure we’ve had a few arguments like the others but every time he apologizes immediately and makes things right But suddenly this week everything changed.
I was on my period and ofc my hormones affect my mood Sometimes I felt like I couldn’t stand his presence and other times I feel like I love him sm But 2 days ago something really changed my feelings completely faded out of nowhere I don’t feel anything toward him I avoid him bc I honestly don’t know what to say ! My period ended but I started bleeding again from overthinking and guilt.. I feel so guilty toward him Why did my feelings suddenly switch off like that as if I never loved him!? Even tho I know I did This scares me.
What makes it worse is that when I told him that relationships sometimes go through phases of emotional coldness he said Why doesn’t that ever happen to me? He told me his biggest fear is losing me and begged me not to leave no matter what happens
I know I won’t find someone like him again He’s my type the kind of man I always wanted so sweet No one’s ever treated me the way he does But now I speak to him coldly and he doesn’t deserve that Before all this he used to ask me to be extra affectionate and clingy He said that he loves it and that he would never be annoyed by too much attention + that I wasn’t giving him enough love (Before this happened) even though I was giving him all of it But now even that love I used to feel or to give is gone.
When he messages me a lot and I don’t respond I feel so much pressure And it kills me. Cuz I was in a toxic relationship with a psychopath He was mentally ill truly insane not just as a figure of speech. He was a danger to my life and constantly threatened me
I felt more like his therapist than his girlfriend I went through hell with that person literally (but ofc It wasn’t love it was an unhealthy attachment)
That’s why I’ve become more aware now and I no longer get attached to anyone
it was so hard for me I thought I had healed but maybe not.. When I feel pressured by constant calls or messages I remember that toxic experience + Even now I told my bf bc of how deeply he loves me not to get too attached so it doesn’t turn into an unhealthy attachment I said that for his own good I honestly didn’t expect to get into a relationship again I truly didn’t want that
But everything happened so fast I don’t even know how
and now I haven’t told him yet what I’m going through and that my love didn’t just fade it completely disappeared Words of love have become heavy on my heart I say “I love you too” so I don’t hurt him but I don’t feel it
And yet despite all this I’m still wondering :
TL;DR: What is the solution? What should I do should I leave or stay I’m exhausted from overthinking and guilt Guilt always takes over me in relationships even tho it’s not my fault!
So guys tell me Why I don’t feel anything ?
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Do you see him in person? If this is a relationship over screens, it’s normal to get bored.
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