So basically I (18M) just broke up with my gf (18F). She was my first real love and really my first real serious relationship we were dating a little over a year. I’m about to graduate my senior year of highschool but 3 days ago I broke up with my gf. And this being my first real break up DAMN I miss her. Like fuck I know it’s for the best and I tried working through things, but I miss her so much already. I first I felt nothing, then some anger, but now I really just wish she was here to comfort me. It’s making me second guess myself. I know I made the right decision, but I miss her so much it makes me think maybe it’s willing to just be with her anyway even though there’s so many bad things. It feels impossible to live without her. I see her at school now and just her ignoring me breaks my heart. Seeing her smile at school makes me so angry because I wish I could see that she’s sad too. I want to text her but I know I shouldn’t, I want to move on but I’m scared, I’m worried I won’t find someone else or anything close to this serious and honest of a relationship because it’s the only one I’ve ever had. I want to cry and for her to be here at my shoulder reassuring me again. But I don’t miss the fights, the constant yelling, the constant never being good enough. But fr, like can I just get some advice idk how to deal with this? Idk what to do.
TL;DR I basically broke up with my gf and I’m lonely lost scared and don’t know how to cope cuz I still love her.