Ongoing Crushes in a 20-year-old marriage

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I’ve been married for 20 years. However, I’m finally getting a divorce because it’s not a healthy or mutually respectful marriage. We have a 17-year-old daughter who even once voiced to me, “why don’t i get a divorce.” All and all, I have been having ongoing crushes since year 5 of my marriage and was wondering who all can relate and what you have done? The fact that these crushes often did not know, nor were they requited in any way is all that much more painful. The latest one I have, has me in a manic episode. Like I went to him, confided with him, and the last time I saw him, he gave me the same fake smile as my previous crush who used to fake smile at me all the time. It’s like, “I see you but I won’t give you genuine warmth because I’m just being polite.” It’s so bad. And I know that I get these because my marriage is unsatisfying, sexually, spiritually, and emotionally. Thanks for listening.

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**TL;DR;** : This post is about ongoing crushes in a long-term relationship, why it occurs and how to deal?