I am on bipolar medication that my doctor wont let me come off because I have manic episodes if come off them, I recently hit 250 lbs. I am a 29 year old woman, I am single and deeply unhappy about it. I dont know if anyone would date me being so big and hating on myself. I am experiencing thoughts of unaliving myself to be honest with you guys. I can visibly see myself hitting 300 lbs the rate I am going. I desperately need help but dont know how to help myself. I have fought and fought with the doctors to get off the medication but they wont listen to me, In fact they are renewing my community treatment order ( a mandate that forces me to take the medicine injections, I am canadian they can do that here) I honestly am considering unaliving myself. I already know no one will ever date me at this weight and I am subject to a life alone fat and unloved. I dont know what to do. I have tried different weight loss strategies they have been uneffective. I think getting off the meds is the best solution but they wont let me