UPDATE #2AITAH for telling my half sister I’m glad her mum died and hope dad dies too?

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Guys I decided to go no contact for now.

It kills me because there is genuine love there despite all the time/years. But I just can’t forget the past.

She messaged me asking to meet up. I didn’t reply for a few days but then I spoke to my new therapist (who has been amazing despite only doing a few sessions yet) and he helped me with it. He basically was instrumental in helping me make up my mind. The consensus is that I can always have contact when and if I’m ready but I’m blatantly not yet. And I can always have first contact, but I can’t take it away if I have it and I’m not ready.

So when I messaged her, I said no and I want a clean break. That I do forgive her and hold no ill will now but for my own sake, I think it’s best we part ways and we don’t talk anymore. I was worried she’d react badly but to her credit she was very dignified in her answer – she basically said ok and she’s here in case I ever change my mind.

I deleted her number and blocked her email and social media.

My wife (rock as always) wanted to keep her details as a “backup” for me in case I change my mind. Despite not thinking I’ll ever want them, I agreed. I feel better knowing that.

So onwards and upwards now as they say. I’ve got my next therapy appointment this week so I don’t doubt I’ll be talking about this.