My ex found my post asking for help on Reddit! Should I feel guilty or thankful that it’s over?

A while back I was in a really bad situation and ended up posting this.
Do you think I should blame myself? Or be thankful it’s over?
The post was the following text, I feel guilty sometimes for posting this in the past.
It was a desperate situation.

“Out of nowhere, she sends me a “hi,” asks how I’m doing, and then disappears.

I was dating a woman who would cancel plans last minute, say I didn’t love her and that I would get tired of her, jokingly told me to find someone else, complained that I wasn’t going to see her, and when I said I would, she said her room was messy. Whenever I commented on anything, she would say, “If you don’t like it, I’m leaving.” She also tried to make me jealous by saying people were asking if she was single. Then she blocked me on WhatsApp and sent me an SMS saying she missed me. After that, her mother called me asking what happened and if I liked her daughter. After that, my ex called me inviting me to her mother’s party. And finally, she sent me a message saying she loves me, misses me more than she thought she would, and asked if I wanted to go to her house. I refused, and she said I abandoned her and that the choice was “MINE.” She asked if I was happy with my choice, said she gave up on me coming back to her, told me not to message her so I wouldn’t give her false hope, said I took away her happiness and that she wants it back. Anyway, I’m so confused that I’m almost doing something stupid with my own life.”