Background. My sister and i grew up together, we always get along since we were kids. Just like any normal siblings. I’m single for a yr now. I’ve had multiple relationships throughout hs before but because of my ego, I’m a virgin (use to be proud of this but now kinda regret it). Let’s get to the part where i have a crush on my sister.
This is summer so a month ago, our family went on a trip to Vietnam to enjoy the beach there for a week. My first interaction that led to this situation is when we finish swimming, playing, we had to take a shower to me and my sister went to an outdoor beach shower to rinse or might as well shower fr. Unlike the local who shower right outside (they have shower heads in and out the shower room), we get into the last room together which is pretty small for us but still enough space and started rinsing. There’s a lot of sand so we both know it wouldn’t clean if we don’t get naked. So we do, she did first so ig i have to too. But while we clean, i couldn’t stop staring at her body, it looked so good, i hadn’t seen it for 10yrs since the last time we showered together as kids. She noticed when i had a boner but ignored it and said it’s normal. Yeah and for the entire evening i couldn’t stop thinking about my sister (what a perv). We shared a room too like it’s always been, my parents shared a room, me and my sister shared a room. The whole week she just got too comfortable.After the incident, she changed in front of me multiple times, even stepped in the bath with me twice. I was uncomfortable asf but she said we both seen each other body so now it’s super normal just like when we were kids. The thing was i always had a boner when she did this ts so it’s embarrassing.
When we got back to the state, me and my sister got closer. We interacted more, we talked more, even closer to when before she moved out 2yrs ago. We now kiss on the lips multiple times to express our siblings love instead of hug like we used to. She did first all of a sudden and for her it’s more fun but for me, it makes me want her and i felt like she’s giving me hint.
Now that’s she’ll br here for a couple of weeks more, and all i could think of is at least hook up with her or be her bf, it’s totally wrong but when i read other people’s stories abt the situation i feel like it’s …fine? But if it’s not ok (I’m leaning toward it), i still can’t stop thinking about her. Need help.
TL;DR: I have a crush on my sister and i want to get out of ts cuz it’ll be weird, but i felt too deep for her.
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How do I un-read this? Wtf.
You are an adult. You can control your emotions if you choose to. Everyone gets intrusive thoughts from time to time, but they don’t indulge them and spin them out into full fledged fantasies. You know you are being gross, so stop it.
On the off-chance this is real (which seems deeply unlikely):
No, this is not normal.
No, you should not pursue it.
No, your sister encouraging it is not okay.
It’s bad. Bad. Bad OP. No. No. Go sit in the corner…hopefully with a therapist.
That’s enough internet for today.